Help about jumping

[shinitai_sh0jo]

I know a lot of people asked about jumping, but there it goes.

I live in a 26-story building, with access to a terrace. Jumping off the ledge wouldn't be that difficult (since I almost did it on New Year's 2022 without realizing it.)
couldn't find anything about positions specifically, and I know I should probably search a bit more... though I think it would be a bit hard to survive such a high fall.

I've been considering it, but at the same time it gives me a sense of self awarenesses, since depending on where I would fall, I could end up in the middle of the avenue, where many cars pass...

I know I probably should think of something better, probably wait to get a job and buy recourses, but Idk...

 

[Gonnerr]

If you do it at night , there is less car and it takes a few seconds to fall.

This is how Gene Sprague did it in 2006. They were filming for the documentary The Bridge , they caught a few suicides live.

I think he preferred backward so its less scary. He did look before jumping to not fall on any boat or kayak.

 

[shinitai_sh0jo]

I actually found an easier spot.

The bathdroom window has enough space for me to push myself out of it, though I did needed a stool to be able to check, I did it, and I'm sure I can be able to jump off it I so decide to.

I did spent a while contemplating my own ctb yesterday, but gave up and went to lay down due to a strong ass headache. It ended up just getting worse—to the point I couldn't go to tech school look how nice —and I spent the whole day at home.

Also just reminded myself of how I could just break stuff to do sh if I get desperate again, like just pick the hammer in the tool box and break some tile of the kitchen, or just go and break a glass cup for that... Though I do feel kind of shit when thinking of breaking stuff just to do sh, I have the impression I probably won't remind of the feeling of shame when I'm on the brick.

Well sucks, but we can just wait. I just hope next time I won't get so out of control with sh....