Story A wonderful dream!

[AlexKy]

I fell asleep last night in loneliness, as for many Christmases before, but last night was better than any other. I started having a perfect dream, in which I was in the place that I grew up, surrounded by my childhood friends, but I was alone and lonely. All of a sudden I spot a stranger, at first he gives a bad vibe, but then it's like I was compelled to ask him for help in dying, and I ask, and without any questions or remarks he gives me a white powder. I take it without hesitation and I swallow it. I ask him how long I have left, and he says 40 minutes. I ask him him if he's going to ask for something in return or hurt me and he says no. And then I feel the urge to go and die at home in bed, not on the street, and it was like he was reading my thoughts and he said: "go you have time". And I did and then one of the most pleasurable sensation hits me, I'm surrounded by goodness and warmth, and it was like I was floating home. I reach my home, I get into bed and by my calculations I have like two minutes left, but all of a sudden the best darkness just takes my lights out, no pain, no warning, just nothingness, but the best kind.
I died alone, in my bed, poisoned by a white powder, given by a stranger, but it mattered not, because I got 40 minutes to explore myself and it felt good, for the first time in decades. I wasn't afraid, I understood everything and I was so ready for death! Oh how I wish this dream would turn into reality.
And I'm here for another day!

 

[FuneralCry]

This was interesting to read. Thank you for sharing. More than anything, I want to fall asleep and never wake. I want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and be free from the horrors of this existence. A peaceful death is what I deserve. It is true that dreams can often be better than reality and it can be a dreadful feeling to wake up from them. I tend to only have nightmares though, there is no peace even in sleep. I wish you the best.

 

[AlexKy]

This was interesting to read. Thank you for sharing. More than anything, I want to fall asleep and never wake. I want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and be free from the horrors of this existence. A peaceful death is what I deserve. It is true that dreams can often be better than reality and it can be a dreadful feeling to wake up from them. I tend to only have nightmares though, there is no peace even in sleep. I wish you the best.

I thought of a peaceful death so hard this days that it manifested in my dreams! I'm planning my death every day, but I'm having trouble with the execution, because to be perfectly honest, I'm frozen with fear when I want to push the stool away, or just putting the weight in for partial. I don't have any other resources to try other methods, so hanging will be for me. I just hope my passing will be painless, I hope that I get all the details right when I'm going to do it, because one of this days I shall do it, and be victorious by conquering my fear of death.