A weight has lifted off my shoulders since I joined here.

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I feel immense relief now that I have the information to control when and how I leave this life behind.

I also feel relief now that I have a place where I can speak openly about my feelings without having the police called on me.

Society will be objectively better off without me. I don't work, I'm not in school, I'm on disability. I'm nothing but a drain--on the government, on the foodbank, on the soup kitchens. My only living family is a half-brother whom I haven't seen in person for over 20 years.

I'm at peace now, knowing that I can control my own fate at the time of my choosing.

 

[suisuiforum]

I'm also very glad that I joined this forum to learn how to CTB properly and feel at peace even if I'm not going to immediately do it. Just knowing there's a way out if things get too rough to handle has brought me substantial reassurance, when I don't have to resort to panicking about unpredictable and painful methods.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Yeah...I feel sorry for a lot of people on Suicidewatch on Reddit. They are mostly getting comments urging them to live...and they have less methods to choose from.

Suicidewatch is sad and a shitshow.

 

[beefbaby]

I also feel relief now that I have a place where I can speak openly about my feelings without having the police called on me.

This has always been one of the hardest reasons for me to open up about my depression and suicidal thoughts. The stigma surrounding it is so chastising. I've been 5150'd twice and after the second time I said never again so I just bottle everything up and not tell anybody anymore. I lurked here for awhile before I finally got the guys to register. I love how open honest and accepting everyone is here

 

[suisuiforum]

Yeah...I feel sorry for a lot of people on Suicidewatch on Reddit. They are mostly getting comments urging them to live...and they have less methods to choose from.

Suicidewatch is sad and a shitshow.

Yeah unfortunately Reddit doesn't take kindly to detailed discussions about suicide methods, so everyone who is pro-choice left the site, or they don't voice their opinions very prominently there anymore.

 

[beefbaby]

Yeah...I feel sorry for a lot of people on Suicidewatch on Reddit. They are mostly getting comments urging them to live...and they have less methods to choose from.

Suicidewatch is sad and a shitshow.

Reddit in general is sad and a shitshow

 

[mossyfox]

My feelings of wanting to ctb have lessened since coming here and being able to talk freely and knowing I have more control over how I can ctb if and when I do. For someone like me with kids as young as 5 that's really helpful for being able to stick around longer.

Sometimes it's all too much, but this place makes it a little more tolerable to come here and know other people are experiencing similar feelings. Knowing that we have control over our bodies and support and respect for our decisions is a huge relief.

SS makes me feel less alone and less burdened.

I hear you. Hugs

 

[radiostrap]

Hi all,

New member, first time posting. Knew that suicide forums existed but only decided to actually look yesterday. Lurked most of the day and decided to make an account in the evening.

I too feel glad I've found this place. Had suicidal thoughts since my early teens on and off, I'm 29 now.

Thoughts been getting worse last couple months and even moreso last day or two.

Feel a bit better now I guess knowing that I can express myself a bit here. I've spoken to close friends about how I'm feeling but they clearly don't get me. I get the usual "pull yourself together", "it would be selfish of you", "man up" etc etc as I'm sure many of you have heard time and time again. I guess it's just nice to know that there are people out there who do genuinely understand the feelings, regardless of why or how I/we have those feelings and urges to go away and ctb.

That's all I guess. Love to you all

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I too feel glad I've found this place. Had suicidal thoughts since my early teens on and off, I'm 29 now.

I've been dealing with the thoughts and attempts to CTB since the same age, about 13. So almost 20 years now... It's just so exhausting after a while.

 

[radiostrap]

I've been dealing with the thoughts and attempts to CTB since the same age, about 13. So almost 20 years now... It's just so exhausting after a while.

Seems like we're of a similar age. It doesn't seem to get any easier for me only worse as I get older.

I have good days and bad days, even good months and bad months. It's still there though. Can't see it leaving me to be honest.

Unsure how others feel on this, there seems to be a lot of younger people on here.

 

[awfullife]

Welcome to the party OP. It's a blast and we're a unique bunch, but at least we dont sugar coat shit, pray the gay away, or try to convince people it will get better.

Sometimes it doesn't. Best to u.

 

[Anonymous_A]

When I first found this site I was legit hit by a weirdly odd, yet comforting feeling.
Since people on here don't throw the typical 'don't do it bruh' words at you.

It's like before this place I had never saw replies like 'good luck with whatever you do' etc when people mentioned they was gonna ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I am glad to have this forum. It is good to have somewhere where we can openly talk about these topics in a society that insists we must live no matter what and denies us a right to die (or at least where I live). I am strongly pro choice. It makes me feel a lot better coming here.