Help A Truly Peaceful Method? (Partial Hanging + Overdose)

[9ofHearts]

I am aware that it is (unfortunately) extremely difficult to pass away from an overdose alone, and that the repercussions of surviving an attempt can be drastic. However, I would like some feedback on an idea I've been mulling over, which can effectively be boiled down to forcing a state of unconsciousness while in the noose.

I have attempted via partial hanging 5 separate times over the weekend. Blacking out felt like "TV static," like a slow dissociation from everything.

I kept pulling myself back from the void. At first, it was such an odd feeling; to taste death. I forgot about my problems for a little while (20-30min) and my mind was making up all sorts of reasons to continue living. Then, they came back.

Now, it only takes a minute or so to return to my senses. If that. I enjoy the rush of nearly dying, but having all of my painful memories flood back to me is unbearable.

My plan is to triple down on CNS & respiratory depression. I have never used a prescription painkiller in my life, and I was always averse to taking OTCs like Tylenol or Advil. That is to say, my tolerance is basically zero.

I will be mixing a muscle relaxant (methocarbamol 3000mg/750mg x 4), 20mL of Promethazine, & 0.5L hard liquor while I already have the rope around my neck, in the kneeling position. I plan to keep dropping my weight forward until I finally lose the strength to fight back.

Spoiler: BAC Calculation

I've cut my weight down to about 62kg (136lbs). Just the alcohol alone would make me pass out, but this cocktail combined with the blood-flow restriction from partial hanging almost makes my death a guarantee. My CNS & respiratory functions will already be heavily impaired, which should limit convulsions & unconscious SI.

Hopefully, I will never wake up again. There will be nobody around to cut me loose, resuscitate me or notify EMS. It could be several hours or even a day or two before I'm found.

TL;DR

• Hard liquor (40% ABV) 0.5L
• Methocarbamol (muscle relaxant) 3000mg
• Promethazine (antihistamine) 20mL
• All ingested back-to-back while the noose is already tightened around my neck, in the kneeling position for a partial hanging
• Triple-down on CNS/respiratory depression should limit unconscious SI/convulsions & greatly aid in cessation of breathing
• Ideally, I should fall asleep peacefully & involuntarily in the correct position to CTB and finally have peace.

I'll be listening to a mix of some of my favorite songs, but it'll be a calm list. I just want to go back in time, or sleep forever. My main concern is uncontrollable vomiting, but depending on the position I find myself in, it may not come out at all.

Please let me know your thoughts. I plan to go through with this tomorrow. Should I add anything? What are my chances of dying? What would happen if I survived? Thank you all for your help.

 

[ummwhaaat]

I don't see how you're going to be downing 500 mL of hard liquor without throwing up especially at your weight. You'll be feeling very ill, and alcohol doesn't act THAT fast so you won't really feel the full effect. If you're not putting in your full weight before then, you're most likely throwing up. Not so peaceful is my guess, but it should probably work.

 

[Moonlight Roses]

I want to ctb I just don't know what to do, I wish I could just overdose but don't know what drugs to take and how to get ahold of them

 

[9ofHearts]

I don't see how you're going to be downing 500 mL of hard liquor without throwing up especially at your weight. You'll be feeling very ill, and alcohol doesn't act THAT fast so you won't really feel the full effect. If you're not putting in your full weight before then, you're most likely throwing up. Not so peaceful is my guess, but it should probably work.

Thankfully, I live in a college town. I'm no stranger to excessive drinking. 500mL is definitely an overestimate; I figured I might as well go for broke. Thank you for the advice.

I want to ctb I just don't know what to do, I wish I could just overdose but don't know what drugs to take and how to get ahold of them

KN is currently your best bet (depending on location). SN is beginning to become pretty rare/hard to find, and N is a holy grail now. It'd be easier to get your hands on street-level fentanyl, or an adjacent drug laced with it (again, depending on location). I wish you the best.

 

[Moonlight Roses]

Thankfully, I live in a college town. I'm no stranger to excessive drinking. 500mL is definitely an overestimate; I figured I might as well go for broke. Thank you for the advice.

KN is currently your best bet (depending on location). SN is beginning to become pretty rare/hard to find, and N is a holy grail now. It'd be easier to get your hands on street-level fentanyl, or an adjacent drug laced with it (again, depending on location). I wish you the best.

Tysm

 

[letsmakeitagoodworl]

Thankfully, I live in a college town. I'm no stranger to excessive drinking. 500mL is definitely an overestimate; I figured I might as well go for broke. Thank you for the advice.

KN is currently your best bet (depending on location). SN is beginning to become pretty rare/hard to find, and N is a holy grail now. It'd be easier to get your hands on street-level fentanyl, or an adjacent drug laced with it (again, depending on location). I wish you the best.

Makes me question the advice on this forum, back some years ago SN seemed wildly popular boasting huge success.

Is N now available? Last I heard ages ago covid had ruined sources unless you went to Mexico I think it was. Wish I lived in a country where I could easily get heroin

Thankfully, I live in a college town. I'm no stranger to excessive drinking. 500mL is definitely an overestimate; I figured I might as well go for broke. Thank you for the advice.

KN is currently your best bet (depending on location). SN is beginning to become pretty rare/hard to find, and N is a holy grail now. It'd be easier to get your hands on street-level fentanyl, or an adjacent drug laced with it (again, depending on location). I wish you the best.

Makes me question the advice on this forum, back some years ago SN seemed wildly popular boasting huge success.

Is N now available? Last I heard ages ago covid had ruined sources unless you went to Mexico I think it was. Wish I lived in a country where I could easily get heroine

I am aware that it is (unfortunately) extremely difficult to pass away from an overdose alone, and that the repercussions of surviving an attempt can be drastic. However, I would like some feedback on an idea I've been mulling over, which can effectively be boiled down to forcing a state of unconsciousness while in the noose.

I have attempted via partial hanging 5 separate times over the weekend. Blacking out felt like "TV static," like a slow dissociation from everything.

I kept pulling myself back from the void. At first, it was such an odd feeling; to taste death. I forgot about my problems for a little while (20-30min) and my mind was making up all sorts of reasons to continue living. Then, they came back.

Now, it only takes a minute or so to return to my senses. If that. I enjoy the rush of nearly dying, but having all of my painful memories flood back to me is unbearable.

My plan is to triple down on CNS & respiratory depression. I have never used a prescription painkiller in my life, and I was always averse to taking OTCs like Tylenol or Advil. That is to say, my tolerance is basically zero.

I will be mixing a muscle relaxant (methocarbamol 3000mg/750mg x 4), 20mL of Promethazine, & 0.5L hard liquor while I already have the rope around my neck, in the kneeling position. I plan to keep dropping my weight forward until I finally lose the strength to fight back.

Spoiler: BAC Calculation

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I've cut my weight down to about 62kg (136lbs). Just the alcohol alone would make me pass out, but this cocktail combined with the blood-flow restriction from partial hanging almost makes my death a guarantee. My CNS & respiratory functions will already be heavily impaired, which should limit convulsions & unconscious SI.

Hopefully, I will never wake up again. There will be nobody around to cut me loose, resuscitate me or notify EMS. It could be several hours or even a day or two before I'm found.

TL;DR

• Hard liquor (40% ABV) 0.5L
• Methocarbamol (muscle relaxant) 3000mg
• Promethazine (antihistamine) 20mL
• All ingested back-to-back while the noose is already tightened around my neck, in the kneeling position for a partial hanging
• Triple-down on CNS/respiratory depression should limit unconscious SI/convulsions & greatly aid in cessation of breathing
• Ideally, I should fall asleep peacefully & involuntarily in the correct position to CTB and finally have peace.

I'll be listening to a mix of some of my favorite songs, but it'll be a calm list. I just want to go back in time, or sleep forever. My main concern is uncontrollable vomiting, but depending on the position I find myself in, it may not come out at all.

Please let me know your thoughts. I plan to go through with this tomorrow. Should I add anything? What are my chances of dying? What would happen if I survived? Thank you all for your help.

Might be dumb, but how will you swallow alcohol with a rope tightly around your throat? Wont that make it very hard to actually swallow it?