Hello everyone
So this post is more a mixture of questions about various ways to ctb. I've looked into a few methods and while some would be perfect living in the UK makes it extremely difficult to accomplish.
Such as SN the idea of it sounds perfect really, although I don't have access to any anti sickness meds I would probably chance throwing up and having to drink more and more of the solution but I'm unsure if this is a viable solution for two reasons. I'm guessing throwing it up once would be I'm highly likely to constantly just throw any more mixture back up is this the case? And also sourcing the damn stuff. No I know there's lab grade stuff avaliable online but they're all business sales only or require some kinda disclaimer and I don't think they would accept the order to a residential address unless anyone knows any different?
Inert gas.
While again a really good solution it's more of a cost issue and potentially my location for ending things well it would raise a few eye brows lugging a gas cylinder into a hotel room. Main reason for a hotel room Is so I know my family aren't the ones to find the body, I will have scheduled messages that essentially send several people suicide notes that I've already written out for them. And at the end for probably my mum and dad I would list the hotel location and room number to allow them to contact police and such hopefully it also saves the hotel staff coming in to clean the room and voila I'm in there etc.
Moving a gas bottle into a hotel that's big enough to ensure the recommended 600l capacity isn't a realistic option. I have thought about just doing it in my car. Opening the valve and letting it rip but I've seen a lot on here about sealing the car so I would assume this wouldn't work as oxygen would creap back into the vehicle before I'm definitely dead. Or that the gas might not be sufficient to create an atmosphere incompatible with life.
On this note I have tried to look into just simply using a bit a of a big bag and using suffocation as a method. Simply sealing it up and breathing until I pass and go. But there's the hypercapnic response which by the sounds of it would cause me to rip the back and I'd stay Alive. I don't think I could source prescription sleep pills easily enough that would knock me out to overcome the response but does anyone know if otc or like superstore sleeping remedies would work if taken in large enough quantities.
Or behind door number 3....
So it's kinda one I didn't want to do but throwing myself of somewhere like scammonden Bridge. It's within a short drive. The newish high fence while the impulsive jumper might struggle or be put off a simple small ladder like a telescopic one would easily over come it. I've been toying with the idea more and more as a more viable and realistic option.
I would probably take an overdose of ibuprofen and paracetamol dunno if it would kill me on it's own but I figured if I manage to survive the fall then it doesn't hurt to have something else working against me.
I would set my suicide notes/texts to go out for shortly after I would have jumped. And before I did or at least a little before but still giving myself enough time I would ring 999 to inform them and have police alerted to the pending incident to at least have wheels in motion for getting the road reopened soon and also it would be nice i suppose to leave a recorded message goodbye to family. I would also only do it at like 2 or 3am when traffic is limited and low. Or potentially like recently they have been closing some of the motorway over night around the area so doing it then would be best as there is unlikely to be any traffic to witness or see the aftermath.
Now I know that it's a long way down and there have been at least one case I know of someone surviving but I think the odds are in my favour for it. Although given my luck in life who knows. And there's the stories of people saying they regretted jumping immediately and I may be the same but I know I've given up living.
So if anyone's got feedback or advice for the methods mentioned I would appreciate it. Thank you.
So this post is more a mixture of questions about various ways to ctb. I've looked into a few methods and while some would be perfect living in the UK makes it extremely difficult to accomplish.
Such as SN the idea of it sounds perfect really, although I don't have access to any anti sickness meds I would probably chance throwing up and having to drink more and more of the solution but I'm unsure if this is a viable solution for two reasons. I'm guessing throwing it up once would be I'm highly likely to constantly just throw any more mixture back up is this the case? And also sourcing the damn stuff. No I know there's lab grade stuff avaliable online but they're all business sales only or require some kinda disclaimer and I don't think they would accept the order to a residential address unless anyone knows any different?
Inert gas.
While again a really good solution it's more of a cost issue and potentially my location for ending things well it would raise a few eye brows lugging a gas cylinder into a hotel room. Main reason for a hotel room Is so I know my family aren't the ones to find the body, I will have scheduled messages that essentially send several people suicide notes that I've already written out for them. And at the end for probably my mum and dad I would list the hotel location and room number to allow them to contact police and such hopefully it also saves the hotel staff coming in to clean the room and voila I'm in there etc.
Moving a gas bottle into a hotel that's big enough to ensure the recommended 600l capacity isn't a realistic option. I have thought about just doing it in my car. Opening the valve and letting it rip but I've seen a lot on here about sealing the car so I would assume this wouldn't work as oxygen would creap back into the vehicle before I'm definitely dead. Or that the gas might not be sufficient to create an atmosphere incompatible with life.
On this note I have tried to look into just simply using a bit a of a big bag and using suffocation as a method. Simply sealing it up and breathing until I pass and go. But there's the hypercapnic response which by the sounds of it would cause me to rip the back and I'd stay Alive. I don't think I could source prescription sleep pills easily enough that would knock me out to overcome the response but does anyone know if otc or like superstore sleeping remedies would work if taken in large enough quantities.
Or behind door number 3....
So it's kinda one I didn't want to do but throwing myself of somewhere like scammonden Bridge. It's within a short drive. The newish high fence while the impulsive jumper might struggle or be put off a simple small ladder like a telescopic one would easily over come it. I've been toying with the idea more and more as a more viable and realistic option.
I would probably take an overdose of ibuprofen and paracetamol dunno if it would kill me on it's own but I figured if I manage to survive the fall then it doesn't hurt to have something else working against me.
I would set my suicide notes/texts to go out for shortly after I would have jumped. And before I did or at least a little before but still giving myself enough time I would ring 999 to inform them and have police alerted to the pending incident to at least have wheels in motion for getting the road reopened soon and also it would be nice i suppose to leave a recorded message goodbye to family. I would also only do it at like 2 or 3am when traffic is limited and low. Or potentially like recently they have been closing some of the motorway over night around the area so doing it then would be best as there is unlikely to be any traffic to witness or see the aftermath.
Now I know that it's a long way down and there have been at least one case I know of someone surviving but I think the odds are in my favour for it. Although given my luck in life who knows. And there's the stories of people saying they regretted jumping immediately and I may be the same but I know I've given up living.
So if anyone's got feedback or advice for the methods mentioned I would appreciate it. Thank you.
