A Letter

[NekoNomNom]

Hey, guys. I've mentioned this in other posts, but I had a terrible break up with my ex. With everything else that's happened in my life, that was the final push for me to want to ctb. I've desperately been trying to pick up the pieces, but to no avail so far...

I've spent the last week writing a letter to him...and I just put it in the mail to be sent to him. I am terrified. Terrified that he won't reply; terrified that he will reply. My anxiety is spiking so high right now. I've made sure to not be alone this evening, and I was able to procure some prescribed muscle relaxers that I'm going to take here in a bit.

If there was any time that positive thoughts/feelings could impact something, please send it. I miss him terribly.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm sorry you're going through a rough time in your life. It's never easy losing someone you're close to. Maybe there's a chance you two can reconcile?

Sending positive vibes and love your way regardless!

 

[NekoNomNom]

I'm sorry you're going through a rough time in your life. It's never easy losing someone you're close to. Maybe there's a chance you two can reconcile?

Sending positive vibes and love your way regardless!

Thank you so much. I made a real mess of things, so I'm hoping that he'll forgive me and give me another chance. He's such a wonderful human, you guys. I never wanted to lose him.

I'm so nervous. Just waiting for the muscle relaxers to kick in with a nice cheeseburger from Dairy Queen.

Fuck

 

[Arrow]

sorry for the pain you're going through buddy we're all here for you m8

 

[NekoNomNom]

sorry for the pain you're going through buddy we're all here for you m8

Thank you. I know it's my own dumb ass fault for being in this situation, but I want to work hard for a shot at redemption.

 

[Arrow]

Thank you. I know it's my own dumb ass fault for being in this situation, but I want to work hard for a shot at redemption.

and don't be too hard on yourself either mate, life fucks us over pretty hard