Discussion A good way to tell you want to die

[ForestLove]

Do you hope to be cremated and planted as a tree?

Sounds like a good idea.

 

[Redt2go]

Sounds like a good idea.

It's a thing... I was thinking about it

 

[ForestLove]

It's a thing... I was thinking about it

Try BiosUrn

 

[dandan]

From 16 years old until today 36 years old, I've had mental, cognitive , and emotional issues. Almost always medicated. And I never had good amount of money.

But I was an early Bitcoin Ethereum investor, the amount of ethereum I had in my laptop, equals 2 million dollars today, but I had an accident and had to pay legal fees, my mom made me sell them to pay for it, she wouldnt lend me, I had no job, and no income....

Yes, having those 2Million dollars and not having to work everyday of my life for some one else, could have had made a big difference. Big one. I might still had trouble and coping issues, but I could be kite surfing out of my beach house.

Today I am not only an ustable person, but also filled with regret and poor. yes, that money would have made a BIG difference in my case.... I would still have issues... and probably would wanted to kill myself.... but nonetheless a difference would have been made

 

[DrownedOctopus]

From 16 years old until today 36 years old, I've had mental, cognitive , and emotional issues. Almost always medicated. And I never had good amount of money.

But I was an early Bitcoin Ethereum investor, the amount of ethereum I had in my laptop, equals 2 million dollars today, but I had an accident and had to pay legal fees, my mom made me sell them to pay for it, she wouldnt lend me, I had no job, and no income....

Yes, having those 2Million dollars and not having to work everyday of my life for some one else, could have had made a big difference. Big one. I might still had trouble and coping issues, but I could be kite surfing out of my beach house.

Today I am not only an ustable person, but also filled with regret and poor. yes, that money would have made a BIG difference in my case.... I would still have issues... and probably would wanted to kill myself.... but nonetheless a difference would have been made

Yes money can make quality of life better, but it doesn't make a difference in regards to whether or not someone wants to kill themselves if they're really serious about it.
There are underlying mental reasons for it that money won't change.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I never had much money in my life, but just checked my dad's account balances and found out he has a total of $170k and apparently is inheriting another $200k. Feeling how I feel, I felt really proud of my dad in that moment for sucking up the misery that is life and still managing to make that much money consistently and support me my whole life.

Anyway, that just got me thinking, with as shitty as my life circumstances are, if I had that amount of money, I'd still want to kill myself. It really is true what they say, how money doesn't buy happiness because hell, I could have 200M right now and still be miserable, and still want to die.

Taylor, I was reading some of the other responses to you and one of them prompted a question I hope you won't mind answering. Suppose you were reincarnated into a grotesque body that prompted, from the very first meeting, everyone to loathe you. Suppose your physical body, despite your exceptional efforts to be a "good" person (moral, scholastic, work ethic...), kept you out of employment opportunities you're more than qualified for, relegating you to a pool of low-pay, poverty level, physically corrosive manual labor. Suppose, also, that because of your body's appearance, you were denied any physical affection--from your parents' and siblings' refusal to hug or otherwise touch you to the fulfillment of intimacy humans naturally crave. And being reincarnated in a hideous body, suppose, too, that in every other general social setting--dealing with store clerks, hiring people to help you on your property, interacting with community members, and importantly, asking people for help when you really need it (like breaking down on the side of a rural road late at night without your phone...), everything was much, much harder just because others didn't want to be anywhere near you. How would you get through 80 to 100 years of such lonely misery?

 

[dysfunctional]

I've asked myself that question alot. I feel that I'm to far gone for money to help. If I got it, i'd give alot back to my family then dinate the rest to a local charity. Oh and buy some N.

 

[Nitromask]

Yes money can make quality of life better, but it doesn't make a difference in regards to whether or not someone wants to kill themselves if they're really serious about it.
There are underlying mental reasons for it that money won't change.

I think it can differ from person to person. I know I am 100% serious about suicide, but I also know that a couple million dollars would make the majority of my issues go away. I don't believe I am depressed per se, but more at the point in my life where I've worked out that it's not logical to be a slave to the system for another 30 years before I retire.

 

[Taylor]

As I see it, money makes lives easier, not happier. Unless your woes are essentially about debt or a lack of basic resources, money doesn't change how you feel about life.

I see it that way too.

Taylor, I was reading some of the other responses to you and one of them prompted a question I hope you won't mind answering. Suppose you were reincarnated into a grotesque body that prompted, from the very first meeting, everyone to loathe you. Suppose your physical body, despite your exceptional efforts to be a "good" person (moral, scholastic, work ethic...), kept you out of employment opportunities you're more than qualified for, relegating you to a pool of low-pay, poverty level, physically corrosive manual labor. Suppose, also, that because of your body's appearance, you were denied any physical affection--from your parents' and siblings' refusal to hug or otherwise touch you to the fulfillment of intimacy humans naturally crave. And being reincarnated in a hideous body, suppose, too, that in every other general social setting--dealing with store clerks, hiring people to help you on your property, interacting with community members, and importantly, asking people for help when you really need it (like breaking down on the side of a rural road late at night without your phone...), everything was much, much harder just because others didn't want to be anywhere near you. How would you get through 80 to 100 years of such lonely misery?

I honestly couldn't. I am so thankful to God (keep in mind that I'm exceptionally humble, and never boastful about it) for blessing me with the gift of being physically attractive. I have no idea how I could've gotten through life without it, for your aforementioned reasons above. It's also the main reason why I feel immense guilt for even contemplating destroying that gift, despite how truly trapped I am mentally and the immense amount of pain and suffering I'm in and cannot escape. Yes, being gifted in appearance does have its benefits, and ease of opportunity, but at a price, on the other end of the spectrum. I was often hated and envied for how I look, and people would always assume I was this arrogant jerk, when on the inside I'm this extremely gentle, compassionate, delicate and sweet guy. I truly admire the strength of less physically gifted people for exactly everything you described above, how much harder it is to succeed in a naturally superficial world. Like I said, I don't think I could do it. That's why I pray to God and first of all thank him for blessing me with this amazing life I was given, and to just take me home now, (and that reincarnation is not possible for me) as I'm truly at my wits end and can't see myself continuing to live in this miserable condition any longer.

 

[Taylor]

I just had a conversation about that sort of. A "what if" scenario being offered a ridiculous amount of money or to die instantly.
Money changes nothing in your head, look at all the celebrities who killed themselves. A lot of them were kinda fucked in the head before they came into money, and having it didn't make things better.
too many people think "if only I had this" imo, and none of them realize you're going to be just as miserable with it than without. You'll just have a different set of miseries. A new thing to want for.
The grass is always greener.

This is just like that saying, "Wherever you go, there you are." I think the same rule would apply for money as well.

 

[dandan]

I think it can differ from person to person. I know I am 100% serious about suicide, but I also know that a couple million dollars would make the majority of my issues go away. I don't believe I am depressed per se, but more at the point in my life where I've worked out that it's not logical to be a slave to the system for another 30 years before I retire.

Of course!!! There you go, I agree with you.

And money isn't all, I always had issues since early teens ....

Sure couple millions would solve many things , but I lost them.... Sure I won't make them back.... Now I'm screwed (mentally, emotionaly) and economically....


So what's the point going on?


Maybe if I developed a super humor and get to create a funny YouTube channel then some comedy show ... Maybe life would be worth living ... But I can't even get my roommate to smile


In Mexico there's no retirement no more, work until death, LOL... Fuck that

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I think it can differ from person to person. I know I am 100% serious about suicide, but I also know that a couple million dollars would make the majority of my issues go away. I don't believe I am depressed per se, but more at the point in my life where I've worked out that it's not logical to be a slave to the system for another 30 years before I retire.

Love it!

 

[ThinkingAboutThis]

I know it sounds like a cliche, but once the sense of peace and calm is gone, there's no amount of money that can ever bring it back.

 

[Taylor]

I haven't known happiness at any point in my life, at least nothing that was reciprocated by a woman. So you have knowledge I don't.

So how do you think you would feel if you were resurrected into a new body, but knew that you had been here? How do you think you would feel if you knew the pain of this existence?

Apropos your belief, are you staying true? Or are you just hedging your bets? Scriptures talk of his unwavering love for all.

"One of the last things Jesus did on Earth was, invite a prisoner to join him, in heaven. He loved that criminal. I say he loved that criminal as much as he loved anyone. Jesus knew in his heart, it takes a lot to love a sinner, but the sinner? Needs it all the more." - Harold Perrineau.

Oh it's definitely true faith. Even though I may be suffering now, I still believe life is a beautiful gift, and believe that it had to have come from some type of almighty creator, and Christianity reflects that perfectly in my mind. It makes even more sense when you grasp the concept that sin = death, and we were sinners from the beginning, and that's why God sent his Son into the world to redeem us.

As for your first question, I would first be absolutely shocked and most likely burst into tears of joy, to know that God's promises were true all along. I would then feel immense relief, knowing that all of the pain and suffering I went through is gone and done away with for good, and will never return, as God also promised.

I know it sounds like a cliche, but once the sense of peace and calm is gone, there's no amount of money that can ever bring it back.

I know exactly what you're talking about. I haven't felt that since 2013.

 

[Sarainia Angelsong]

For me just the basic Natural Burial is good enough for me, Die, Rot, Stink, then just bones to sit in ground forever! No need for me to be cremated I'm not worth the time of day for people to go through that affort! I could care less if worms and stuff go through my body as I decompose, once I'm dead nothing will bother me anymore so!

 

[LivingToLong]

I've enough money for now, how long it will last is another issue. That, in itself, is a source of potential worry. I'm looking at an old age of comparative poverty. An extra few hundred thou would resolve that financial worry, for sure, but it'd not 'take the pain away' (to sound cliched)

A few people above have a similar perspective and outlook to my own, I think. Sure, money would help - and I could probably fritter away my existence with it, probably by endlessly travelling and spending - but I'm not sure I'd be any happier. My 'problems' would be packed and travel with me. I probably wouldn't enjoy it but it'd keep me entertained and occupied. I'd not be essentially any different to the person I am today though; that is, just going through the motions of living. I feel the time has arrived for me check out.