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[gr1lledcheese]

I plan to ctb tonight and of course after not hearing from friends for a while now I've had one text, and one phone call, and both were from people who like to push for answers, and who aren't easily discouraged. I didn't respond to one of them, and the other wants me to come over tonight. Ordinarily I'd come over - no questions asked, but I know if I come over tonight I might not ctb.

If I don't ctb tonight, I'll go back to my life, and while there is comfort there, there's also the knowledge that I'll never be able to support myself and will continue to be a drain to my friends and family.
I can't go back to that.

 

[Gordy99]

I'm sorry you are going through this. As I said in the other thread...I hope you find peace. I wish you the best!

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I'm sorry you are going through this. As I said in the other thread...I hope you find peace. I wish you the best!

Thank you!

 

[Nobuses]

I understand what you are going through, its not easy to stay and its not easy to leave. This is hard, nobody is prepared to leave this world . I wish u the best. And its ok if u stay, u should know that, and if u are in pain its ok to leave too.I wish u the best! Grilledchesse ;)

 

[angiegirl30]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I don't know your life but would be willing to brainstorm to help you find solutions. If not, I understand. Glad you are still here for the moment and hope you stay for a bit longer.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you the best. Hope you find peace.

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I understand what you are going through, its not easy to stay and its not easy to leave. This is hard, nobody is prepared to leave this world . I wish u the best. And its ok if u stay, u should know that, and if u are in pain its ok to leave too.I wish u the best! Grilledchesse ;)

Thanks! Right now it's m writing out my thoughts. I've left notes at my friends house, but I think I'm saying more in this note. At this point I'm pretty apt to ctb.

 

[Nobuses]

Thanks! Right now it's m writing out my thoughts. I've left notes at my friends house, but I think I'm saying more in this note. At this point I'm pretty apt to ctb.

I wish u all the peace that you are looking for shine bright like the oil from a grilledcheese :)

 

[gr1lledcheese]

I wish u all the peace that you are looking for shine bright like the oil from a grilledcheese :)

Thanks, I needed a laugh!

 

[TerminalConscience]

I hope you find peace.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Wishing you peace, OP.

 

[Crazy4u]

Are you still there? I wish you well

 

[gr1lledcheese]

Are you still there? I wish you well

I am. According to the protocol I drink the SN at 12am PST. About three plus hours from now.

 

[Crazy4u]

I am. According to the protocol I drink the SN at 12am PST. About three plus hours from now.

you will be missed. Sad to see you go. whatever happens, I wish you a peaceful journey

 

[Foresight]

Is that your cat in your pfp? So pretty. I wish you well and the most peaceful night. I'm glad you had friends to speak with tonight.

 

[gr1lledcheese]

Is that your cat in your pfp? So pretty. I wish you well and the most peaceful night. I'm glad you had friends to speak with tonight.

Not mine technically. He kind of adopted me when I rented a room from a friend about 6 or 7 years ago. He's still alive. My friend knows and understands the bond we have.

 

[occamsrazor]

Not mine technically. He kind of adopted me when I rented a room from a friend about 6 or 7 years ago. He's still alive. My friend knows and understands the bond we have.

I'm sorry you're hurting. my heart hurts for you. I'll be watching my clock and thinking of you dearly whether you decide it's time or not. (I hope you decide to see what tomorrow will bring) What will happen to the kitty?

 

[Interloper]

I am. According to the protocol I drink the SN at 12am PST. About three plus hours from now.

You're able to stay calm during this? Doing anything special to keep yourself busy?

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

If I remember [memory loss sucks], I'll check in a bit before midnight, OP.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Thinking of you, OP. Godspeed.

 

[Foresight]

Thinking of you as well, rest easy.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

Good luck, godspeed.

 

[Wrennie]

Much love

 

[gottago222]

rip sweet soul hope you found the peace you were searching for

 

[Cats26]

Sending you much love and peace

 

[Faraknur]

Still there my friend?

 

[steviewonder]

Farewell. Sweet dreams. I will see you on the other side

 

[Faraknur]

I guess you passed away. I wish you peace my friend. My heart aches but you dont have to suffer anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever happens. I'm sorry for all of the suffering you had to go through in life.

 

[LeapOfFaith]

Saw this a bit to late.. I am sorry you had to go through such a painful life that it led to this. I hope you are at peace now. You really seemed like a good person