Help A couple of questions

[Unrecognizable7]

Hello, I have got a few questions.

I have a hard time coming to terms with this being the end but I am suffering from insane body dysmorphia and have been living like a shut in for most of my life and still I feel too ashamed to go outside. I have been through everything and every help available and I cannot pass the time on a day to day basis due to these intrusive thoughts and the disgust. I have no friends and my family is almost as fucked up.
So here are my questions:


1. Is benadryl a viable alternative to benzoes? i cannot get any I am pretty sure.
2. What is the best way to schedule a message online?
3. I want relief but I feel like I'll just be gone. Is there anything you guys believe comes after? I am afraid of hell and I am afraid of not being anymore but then again I am afraid of waking up every day.
4. I put this in another thread but can german police trace my phone if I am an adult and a relative says i am suicidal?
5. How long does it take for SN to kill me?


I know a lot of these questions have probably been answered before but I am literally to anxious to even use my phone at this point...


Thank you

 

[darksouls]

I think humanity is turning this planet into hell
if there is another hell
it is empty
because all the devils are here on earth

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

Benadryl will not remotely do the job like benzos will. Benadryl overdose is actually anywhere from very unpleasant to terrifying.

You can schedule send an email on Gmail. It's super simple. You can also auto upload a video on YouTube.

Unfortunately I can't answer that question definitively. I personally believe in Heaven, Hell, and Purgatory, Limbo and other dimensions. My best advice is to really savor the things about this life that you find pleasurable, reconcile with your loved ones, and basically tie up any emotional loose ends to maximize your chances of having an easy exit. If there's nothing after, you'll have no regrets and eternal sleep. If there is something after, it will likely be much better than here.

Yes they can. Protective powers.

That depends on body weight, whether you've fasted, level of purity. Hard to say.