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[bnkshawty]

i dont feel real
i never feel real tho, i isolate sm yet i js wish2 have a close friend but i cant make friends cz i suck i suck at talking in a crowd of nice ppl i feel alone i js have headphones in and dissasociate everywhere i go even when i intend to meet new people
im an alien and burden 2 everyone around me
im an angel misplaced into a scary enviornment filled w people very differant than me in millions of ways
people better than me in every way
"You have2 save urself u cant rely on others"
:c

 

[Jadeith]

im an alien and burden 2 everyone around me

You can't be a burden when you isolate yourself from others. If you ignore people they ignore you. That doesn't bother them. And i don't think it would bother them if you try to develop any kind of connection. Thing is that "approaching" unfortunately must be initiated by you (if you want it that is) because we live in times when one can be offended even by looking at them so people in general are extra careful when approaching others IRL

"You have2 save urself u cant rely on others"

Problem is that most of the time it goes other way around - "you have to rely on others when you can't save yourself". Others won't take care of you acting on their own will. You have to approach and ask for help. And that's one of if not the most difficult thing to ask.

 

[bnkshawty]

You can't be a burden when you isolate yourself from others. If you ignore people they ignore you. That doesn't bother them. And i don't think it would bother them if you try to develop any kind of connection. Thing is that "approaching" unfortunately must be initiated by you (if you want it that is) because we live in times when one can be offended even by looking at them so people in general are extra careful when approaching others IRL

Problem is that most of the time it goes other way around - "you have to rely on others when you can't save yourself". Others won't take care of you acting on their own will. You have to approach and ask for help. And that's one of if not the most difficult thing to ask.

im js overthinker asf when some1 gives me one feeling that im bothering/burdening them i shut down and cry i always do the most for others esp in relationships but i can never find someone who matches my energy no matter how much i change my identity 4 them

 

[Jadeith]

im js overthinker

Offering virtual calming hug. Brain that never shuts up is quite a burden.

no matter how much i change my identity 4 them

I'm far from telling you what to do but maybe, just maybe try to be true to yourself? You know, "yourself" won't leave you until you die, no matter what you do so maybe just try to get comfortable in your own skin, without looking at others? Just as an experiment and see where it goes and if anywhere..?

 

[bnkshawty]

Offering virtual calming hug. Brain that never shuts up is quite a burden.

I'm far from telling you what to do but maybe, just maybe try to be true to yourself? You know, "yourself" won't leave you until you die, no matter what you do so maybe just try to get comfortable in your own skin, without looking at others? Just as an experiment and see where it goes and if anywhere..?

trying but my enviornment atm isnt helping the case at all

 

[Jadeith]

trying but my enviornment atm isnt helping the case at all

Indeed, lack of local support or even environment's hostility towards change is hard to overcome. But i think you can do it. Do you think you could believe in that too? Or try?
Might be worth trying... if not immediately then maybe in a long run?

 

[bnkshawty]

Indeed, lack of local support or even environment's hostility towards change is hard to overcome. But i think you can do it. Do you think you could believe in that too? Or try?
Might be worth trying... if not immediately then maybe in a long run?

i feel so alone

 

[Jadeith]

i feel so alone

This forum is quite large community. And you can approach anyone without repercussions, blocking any unwanted contacts. I understand that it is nowhere near as efficient as physically present supportive person but still, not as alone as your mind makes you believe.