INTJme
Epeolatrist
- Mar 22, 2024
- 336
The past couple of weeks has felt like such a drag and the heatwave isn't helping one bit. But d-day is getting closer. I leave my city in 4 days and ctb in exactly 8 days from now. I've sold all my remaining stocks and the money will reflect soon in my bank account. I'll then schedule a full transfer to my mom's account for the day after I've ctb-ed.
I also upgraded from a 4-star to 5-star hotel (it will be my first time in one!). Will stay 3 nights there and ctb on the third night around 9PM. I have several unread books lying with me but I'm choosing to read Dostoyevsky's "Crime and Punishment" in my remaining days. I was tempted to take my laptop with me but since it's a new MacBook, I don't want it to fall into the hands of corrupt cops; I'll erase everything and leave it at home.
I am preparing my ctb kit which comprises of sodium thiopental and metoclopramide tablets for now. Need to buy whiskey to potentiate the barbiturate and a bottle opener to open the vials. Also, a large plastic bag to make the method foolproof. Was thinking if adding honey to the concoction will make the taste more bearable without affecting absorbability and efficacy of thiopental. If someone knows, feel free to comment.
Can't wait to get rid of the suffering.
I also upgraded from a 4-star to 5-star hotel (it will be my first time in one!). Will stay 3 nights there and ctb on the third night around 9PM. I have several unread books lying with me but I'm choosing to read Dostoyevsky's "Crime and Punishment" in my remaining days. I was tempted to take my laptop with me but since it's a new MacBook, I don't want it to fall into the hands of corrupt cops; I'll erase everything and leave it at home.
I am preparing my ctb kit which comprises of sodium thiopental and metoclopramide tablets for now. Need to buy whiskey to potentiate the barbiturate and a bottle opener to open the vials. Also, a large plastic bag to make the method foolproof. Was thinking if adding honey to the concoction will make the taste more bearable without affecting absorbability and efficacy of thiopental. If someone knows, feel free to comment.
Can't wait to get rid of the suffering.
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