I think about the fact that I didn't ask to exist. I didn't ask to have what I have, I didn't try, I didn't want it, I didn't desire to be provided for or to owe anyone anything or to give all my time to all the things other people demand. I work for everyone else's minute immediate happiness and none of it matters. If I want something I can work for it and buy it but it doesn't matter. It's an ever crawling treadmill populated with people who want to get things from me and coerce me into doing things for them that they don't want to do themselves.
I don't worry about the climate or the environment because those things have a way of leveling themselves out. Everything fights entropy and eventually succumbs to it. Life is just a brief competition trying to suck energy out of the environment in a bid to reach past the inevitable. We only matter because those social constructs assign meaning to the stuff we do. If not for us assigning meaning to a pyramid it would be no different than any pile of rocks anywhere else.
One can say that the pyramid helps us remember Khufu but of the thousands of workers who built it, name 10 of the people that moved boulders onto it today? Go back to 500 years from the date that it was built and name 10 of the builders from that pyramid construction. You can't! And it's not some class discussion. It's that our lives and their works very likely in every probability will not be even a tiny ripple in the memories of people 500 years from now. And I don't want to determine my value by the world of the people here in my lifetime. They're mean, vindictive, self adsorbed, loving of the internet and vapid social media, quick to judge and lazy. People today justify and rationalize everything that comes across their thoughts.
It's correct that the equalizer is death. For all. It is those who are scared that want there to be significance to their accomplishments, their hard work, their status, their buildings and monuments. If a movement started that ignored all achievements and assigned success to be choosing to ignore any rank or social status it would end their power.
People are scared of losing their control or perceived power and they are absolutely petrified if people start to completely discount achievements. The greatest anger is when someone assigned great sacrifice or status to something and a person decides to be indifferent or simply not care.
I ask this tough question: I have been to the tomb of the unknown soldier where men stand guard 24 hours a day in all weather and selflessly walk the path to solemnly guard those entombed. We hold onto their deaths as sacrifice.
What if that person desired most of all to not be remembered by anyone?
What if all deaths had no celebration at all or rememberance of life.
What if a movement began where the goal was to die and completely disappear with no reason, no remains, no piece of any evidence and no explanation.
I think that this movement would frighten more people than nearly any previous movement because the result would truly be a selfish choice of the individual that took away every single bit of all power that existed by others over someone. Suddenly workers could stop showing up and no one would be able to exert control. Debts would be left without reason. Investigations would be stuck at the disappearance and family would realize the person simply chose not to exist further. All of societies expectations, rules, social mores, laws, controls, powers and fears simply stop when a person dies. It's the ultimate control and I believe it frightens people. The Nazi Germans who committed suicide before trial; say whatever thoughts on the acts or deeds committed which were vile, they exerted control over their fate after the world took control of them.
I believe that a great fear would be the existence of some "delete" system that a person could walk into that would make their physical existence cease instantly and irreversibly. If such a portal came into being that simply vaporized a human with no trace, the outcry by those who wanted love or memories or goods or services or emotional connection from the one who made the choice would be louder than the cries against abortion or war or homosexuality or any other social trigger. And it can be disguised in many forms but the truth is that it's a fear of loss that motivates the anti choice.
