4 attempts now, but no results.

[Nat.alias]

Hi, I'm new here, and so grateful to find this forum.

Yesterday I tried what has been my 4th attempt of going peacefully. But never works!!
This time I made sure I was alone, and no one was going to stop me.
I don't know if I just didn't make it work… I tried to breath the gas direct from the cooking oven, made a "bubble" like helmet with a plastic bag, and breath the gas directly.

I've tried this method before, and one time I got caught, and other one didint worked, I think it was because didn't stay for long.

This time I read that you have to inhale at least 40-50 min the gas. So I put my alarm, and lay begging this time would work. BUT NO!!

Nothing besides feeling tired, and a little dizzy. I just slept like 4 hours. And that was it. I just hate that every damn try I make, it doesn't happen. And that gets me even more depressed.

The other times I got caught, my husband and family just say it's because I want attention, and only fake I want to commit suicide. And that just freaking bothers me, because I feel that I'm a failure, even at ending my worthless life. I'm not even good at putting an end to this sad, unworthy life of mine.

Please help me how to achieve it, I just want all of this to end, I can't bare to go a day more in my life, I just want to go everything quiet and make a better life for everyone around me, because I know their life would be so much better without me, I'm just not worth of living.
I just want to rest.

I've tried pills, hanging, gas, electricity… I and I'm bad at it…

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

Welcome around, I imagine it can be frustrating to get people to say to you that you only do it because you want "attention".
There are a lot of resources on this website, so feel free to browse through them and look for what suits your capabilities, your will and your acquisitive power. Please, take your time on this next one, having tried it that many times can lead to heavy despair and impulsive actions and neither of us want to see you get permanently damaged from it. Feel free to engage on other's people posts, or even swing by the chat. Pain is more bearable when shared.

Wish you good luck.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is very difficult to ctb. Methods can easily go wrong, we all deserve a reliable peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing, but the society tries to force us to live. It is understandable wanting to exit when you are suffering so much, I am tired of life as well. I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Someone123]

I am very sorry for the pain you are in. but one of the rules people need to follow on this site so that people don't get into trouble is to not encourage acts - it's kind of a fine line for what can be discussed without potentially be interpreted as encouraging acts. One thing you could do to see ways that other people have tried and to see what has possibly worked for some people is to look in forums, suicide discussion (where you posted this), and then look in the section at the top called Sticky Threads and look in the last topic here which says Suicide Resource Compilation and scroll down a little and about nine methods are listed here- some seem to work better than others, but you could look here to see if any of these might work better for you - there are also other methods that appear on the discussion page that aren't listed here. I do hope you find a way to have peace.