Story 36 hours before ctb!

[love_peep]

I would like to thank everyone who supported me and just read my posts, as well as the moderators who created this account after all. For me, the forum has become something special in the last couple of months that I have been here and I want to appeal to all the inhabitants of the forum that do not repeat my mistakes, fight depression and other trials. I wish you all good luck in your future life and in your future plans.
these last 3 weeks in a psychiatric hospital have been just awful, thank God, I'm home alone again and I can afford to do STB right now. I wouldn't say ctb is a strong act, especially if it was done with exit bag or sn, but I can't say ctb is a weak act, because not many people can decide to do it because of some problems, such as family and so on. Unfortunately, I have no relatives, so no one can save me, and I am glad that tomorrow I will leave this unfair, cruel and greedy world. It's a pity that my fate turned out that way, but I still have to get out of here sooner than necessary. and what will be waiting for me there, I do not yet assume. But still, if you have any dreams, plans for life or goals, fight for your life and do not repeat the mistakes of others. In general, my last post on this forum, so thank you to everyone who has been here with me in these last hours

 

[hunterfla]

I would like to thank everyone who supported me and just read my posts, as well as the moderators who created this account after all. For me, the forum has become something special in the last couple of months that I have been here and I want to appeal to all the inhabitants of the forum that do not repeat my mistakes, fight depression and other trials. I wish you all good luck in your future life and in your future plans.
these last 3 weeks in a psychiatric hospital have been just awful, thank God, I'm home alone again and I can afford to do STB right now. I wouldn't say ctb is a strong act, especially if it was done with exit bag or sn, but I can't say ctb is a weak act, because not many people can decide to do it because of some problems, such as family and so on. Unfortunately, I have no relatives, so no one can save me, and I am glad that tomorrow I will leave this unfair, cruel and greedy world. It's a pity that my fate turned out that way, but I still have to get out of here sooner than necessary. and what will be waiting for me there, I do not yet assume. But still, if you have any dreams, plans for life or goals, fight for your life and do not repeat the mistakes of others. In general, my last post on this forum, so thank you to everyone who has been here with me in these last hours

Hope you find the peace and relief that you desire. Do you have your method chosen? For me, it's SN.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally think that suicide is something courageous especially if the method is something like jumping, I envy and admire those who are finally free. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you can find peace and everything goes well for you! I wish you all the best!

 

[LoiteringClouds]

@love_peep Thanks so much for your contribution on this forum, and having a chat with me
I'm so sad to hear it's your time now.
You've suffered a lot, but I hope peace is ahead of you. Bon voyage - I wish you the best

 

[love_peep]

@love_peep Thanks so much for your contribution on this forum, and having a chat with me
I'm so sad to hear it's your time now.
You've suffered a lot, but I hope peace is ahead of you. Bon voyage - I wish you the best

@LoiteringClouds thank you for your support and correspondence with you, I wish you all the best, it's a pity that my time is coming, but it's for the best, so I wish you good luck no matter how bad it is for you, remember that you will always be supported on this forum

 

[アホペンギン]

I would like to thank everyone who supported me and just read my posts, as well as the moderators who created this account after all. For me, the forum has become something special in the last couple of months that I have been here and I want to appeal to all the inhabitants of the forum that do not repeat my mistakes, fight depression and other trials. I wish you all good luck in your future life and in your future plans.
these last 3 weeks in a psychiatric hospital have been just awful, thank God, I'm home alone again and I can afford to do STB right now. I wouldn't say ctb is a strong act, especially if it was done with exit bag or sn, but I can't say ctb is a weak act, because not many people can decide to do it because of some problems, such as family and so on. Unfortunately, I have no relatives, so no one can save me, and I am glad that tomorrow I will leave this unfair, cruel and greedy world. It's a pity that my fate turned out that way, but I still have to get out of here sooner than necessary. and what will be waiting for me there, I do not yet assume. But still, if you have any dreams, plans for life or goals, fight for your life and do not repeat the mistakes of others. In general, my last post on this forum, so thank you to everyone who has been here with me in these last hours

Good luck on your plans and i hope you find peace.

 

[love_peep]

Good luck on your plans and i hope you find peace.

thanks

Hope you find the peace and relief that you desire. Do you have your method chosen? For me, it's SN.

my method is quite cruel, but since I'm doing self-harm, I think everything will be bad and painful. I'm thinking of taking a full bath of water, tying my arms and legs and getting drunk so as not to give myself the opportunity to get out of the bath while I'm drowning

 

[Crono]

thanks

my method is quite cruel, but since I'm doing self-harm, I think everything will be bad and painful. I'm thinking of taking a full bath of water, tying my arms and legs and getting drunk so as not to give myself the opportunity to get out of the bath while I'm drowning

hanging is not accessible to you?

 

[love_peep]

I personally think that suicide is something courageous especially if the method is something like jumping, I envy and admire those who are finally free. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

thanks for kind of words

hanging is not accessible to you?

its some harder than my method i need to find a good place for it. in my flat i dont have any objects which can help me with hang to my self

I personally think that suicide is something courageous especially if the method is something like jumping, I envy and admire those who are finally free. But anyway best wishes, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

@FuneralCry by the way, do you know how long my account will be suspended after I die?

 

[Crono]

thanks

my method is quite cruel, but since I'm doing self-harm, I think everything will be bad and painful. I'm thinking of taking a full bath of water, tying my arms and legs and getting drunk so as not to give myself the opportunity to get out of the bath while I'm drowning

Evil pro-lifers make suicide difficult so we are forced to use these terrifying methods. but anyway, good luck, hope everything works out and you don't feel so much pain.

 

[love_peep]

Evil pro-lifers make suicide difficult so we are forced to use these terrifying methods. but anyway, good luck, hope everything works out and you don't feel so much pain.

thanks

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

thanks

my method is quite cruel, but since I'm doing self-harm, I think everything will be bad and painful. I'm thinking of taking a full bath of water, tying my arms and legs and getting drunk so as not to give myself the opportunity to get out of the bath while I'm drowning

That sounds fucking awful... Atleast do SWB or something, thats just unnecessary pain and unlikely to work aswell..

 

[MiraiShisen]

wish you painless and peacefull way out of this world, good luck, I will join soon

 

[love_peep]

That sounds fucking awful... Atleast do SWB or something, thats just unnecessary pain and unlikely to work aswell..

if this method doesnt work than i just jump from 180ft building

wish you painless and peacefull way out of this world, good luck, I will join soon

see ya on other side

That sounds fucking awful... Atleast do SWB or something, thats just unnecessary pain and unlikely to work aswell..

I am almost 99 percent sure that this will work because I saw one unsuccessful trick where a girl in handcuffs tried to remove the handcuffs and died because she didn't have enough time to untie herself

 

[Walilamdzii]

What is STB?

 

[saddestbunny]

I hope you find the peace you are looking for

 

[Pardoe84]

I wish you good luck, however your method is very special

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

if this method doesnt work than i just jump from 180ft building

see ya on other side

Jumping is honestly unreliable, you could end up a vegetable
I wouldnt trust that it will 100% work.. people have survived 30.000ft falls before
You can survive some crazy heights if you land legs first, and SI tends to make you do that
The only way to guarantee anything would be to go head first, but you would need insane mental willpower to pull that off
Regardless if you do go now, i wish you peace

 

[love_peep]

Jumping is honestly unreliable, you could end up a vegetable
I wouldnt trust that it will 100% work.. people have survived 30.000ft falls before
You can survive some crazy heights if you land legs first, and SI tends to make you do that
The only way to guarantee anything would be to go head first, but you would need insane mental willpower to pull that off
Regardless if you do go now, i wish you peace

I have been studying the jumping method for several weeks and I know a lot about this method, for example, in what position to jump the desired height, I can calculate the speed of falling and the time of falling, taking into account the air resistance, I also know that you need to fly head down on concrete so that it would 100 work people who did not die falling from a great height, they just fell successfully but head down from the 20th floor on concrete there is hardly a chance of survival plus I'm not afraid to jump

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

If you have researched everything and are sure and ready, well shit, good luck to you then i guess

 

[love_peep]

If you have researched everything and are sure and ready, well shit, good luck to you then i guess

thanks

 

[FuneralCry]

@FuneralCry by the way, do you know how long my account will be suspended after I die?

There is the option to disable your own account, under your account if you click on profile picture at the top of the page. But I think if it's assumed that someone has ctb and they haven't been seen for a long time on the site then I think names eventually get crossed out but if the person is still alive I think they can ask for the account back. This is just from what I've read, I'm not the most knowledgable person about this site.

 

[love_peep]

There is the option to disable your own account, under your account if you click on profile picture at the top of the page. But I think if it's assumed that someone has ctb and they haven't been seen for a long time on the site then I think names eventually get crossed out but if the person is still alive I think they can ask for the account back. This is just from what I've read, I'm not the most knowledgable person about this site.

thanks

 

[veracci]

I would like to thank everyone who supported me and just read my posts, as well as the moderators who created this account after all. For me, the forum has become something special in the last couple of months that I have been here and I want to appeal to all the inhabitants of the forum that do not repeat my mistakes, fight depression and other trials. I wish you all good luck in your future life and in your future plans.
these last 3 weeks in a psychiatric hospital have been just awful, thank God, I'm home alone again and I can afford to do STB right now. I wouldn't say ctb is a strong act, especially if it was done with exit bag or sn, but I can't say ctb is a weak act, because not many people can decide to do it because of some problems, such as family and so on. Unfortunately, I have no relatives, so no one can save me, and I am glad that tomorrow I will leave this unfair, cruel and greedy world. It's a pity that my fate turned out that way, but I still have to get out of here sooner than necessary. and what will be waiting for me there, I do not yet assume. But still, if you have any dreams, plans for life or goals, fight for your life and do not repeat the mistakes of others. In general, my last post on this forum, so thank you to everyone who has been here with me in these last hours

I'm so sorry you ended up getting locked up in a ward. What was that like? And how have you been coping with that situation? I hope you can find peace.

 

[Sichi]

For me, suicide is a courageous act. I'm not going to do it unless there's no other option left for me and I'm still a kind of a coward. It's my ultimate escape plan. I hope you find the peace you deserve OP.

 

[90starve]

wishing you the best with your plans <3

 

[love_peep]

wishing you the best with your plans <3

thanks

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish for this final trial. I'm sorry life has brought you to this, I hope you have a short transition and sweet, dreamless rest.