30 days

[angelcircuit]

Hi. I'm sorry for not replying to any responses I have been given on my posts, but I appreciate the love and support I get from here so much. Thank you.

My sibling is okay. I was able to argue to have a 30 day window before moving out, but all I'm really using the time for is to wait for the SN to arrive. I don't think 20g is enough for me so I'm starving myself in hopes of making it enough. (Funny how this what triggers an ed relapse)

My dad made it clear not to destroy more people today, so I won't. Not today. I'm planning on saving my next two paychecks to buy and Uber and rent a motel room for a night. I'll take ondansetron (or meclizine? Which is better here?) And then SN and watch some Sonic Prime or something until I fall asleep for good. Maybe Supernatural would be a better option. I don't know, what should be the last thing I watch?

Either way, this is it for me. My fate is sealed. Within 30 days I will be dead.

Thank you to everyone who has talked to me for however long this account has been up. I'm sorry if I have been weird or cringe or whatever in the past, but I appreciate everything this site has done for me. You guys were there for me when my family wasn't. You were there when I had no one.

I hope my last 30 days will be somewhat bearable until the end.

 

[Dark Window]

Hi. I'm sorry for not replying to any responses I have been given on my posts, but I appreciate the love and support I get from here so much. Thank you.

My sibling is okay. I was able to argue to have a 30 day window before moving out, but all I'm really using the time for is to wait for the SN to arrive. I don't think 20g is enough for me so I'm starving myself in hopes of making it enough. (Funny how this what triggers an ed relapse)

My dad made it clear not to destroy more people today, so I won't. Not today. I'm planning on saving my next two paychecks to buy and Uber and rent a motel room for a night. I'll take ondansetron (or meclizine? Which is better here?) And then SN and watch some Sonic Prime or something until I fall asleep for good. Maybe Supernatural would be a better option. I don't know, what should be the last thing I watch?

Either way, this is it for me. My fate is sealed. Within 30 days I will be dead.

Thank you to everyone who has talked to me for however long this account has been up. I'm sorry if I have been weird or cringe or whatever in the past, but I appreciate everything this site has done for me. You guys were there for me when my family wasn't. You were there when I had no one.

I hope my last 30 days will be somewhat bearable until the end.

Good luck.

Have you got the other pills and shit available for you to make the SN work?

Is anyone knowledgable here able to confirm if starving oneself for a while is going to be enough to help make this work?

 

[iloverachel]

I wish you peace my friend

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best in your plans.

 

[angelcircuit]

Good luck.

Have you got the other pills and shit available for you to make the SN work?

Is anyone knowledgable here able to confirm if starving oneself for a while is going to be enough to help make this work?

Hello.

No, we only have ondansetron and meclizine on hand. We also have buspirone and benzonatate if that helps somehow, but with a time limit there's not much that can be done.

My weight is average but perhaps not enough to where 20g could do the job for sure. A calorie deficit and maybe fasting on some days may help drop my weight to where its safer. It's a precaution. We don't have backup drinks.

- Lain