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Just want it all to be over
- Oct 25, 2021
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I'm on my last 3 days of life. Tomorrow I'm going to start packing up my ctb supplies to bring to the hotel Saturday afternoon. My nervousnesses is starting to increase since the day is almost here. My gut is telling me that this is finally the right time though, no more postponing. I'm having a final meal with my husband tomorrow night. I put in a sick day for Monday at work even though I should be dead by then. The amount of relief I'm feeling now is the best ever. I actually slept last night the best I have in a long time. The sn method just has to work. My worst fear is waking up in the hospital with my family looking at me like i'm the biggest disappointment ever, more than I already am. It's hard to believe that this is the last weekend of my life. I hope you guys don't mind putting up with me Saturday and Sunday… I'll be nervous and it helps to talk to someone. I'm still going to start my goodbye thread Saturday night after I've checked into the hotel and gotten settled in. Then Sunday I'll update when I'm starting to mix the sn glasses. Let's hope it all goes smoothly and I will be leaving this world by Sunday night.