Rena rossy
will be blue
- Dec 24, 2019
- 124
I am bad with tittles so I went random. Today is my last day here.
I know I haven't really been here for too long and this group did not encourage or affected my decision in any way. Instead, I was able to see some caring and sensitive people that worry sincerely for others. I was able to talk to some of you more than others but that doesn't mean that I didn't notice other members being really nice to each other. I have been watching from the distance haha just kidding, I sound like a stalker haha... Well I hope we would have been able to met in different circumstances but life is like this... Thanks to this community I have been able to cope with the days prior to ctb a little bit better... Used to cry too much, it got reduced to half of it thanks to reading some threats and posts... It saddens me to think of my loved ones but I hope one day they are able to understand that I couldn't control my thoughts anymore, not only because I could see all of the decisions I regreted like a movie in my head but because gradually this started to become a physical pain... Rapid heart beat, shortness of breath, pain in the chest... Feeling completely numb, not even enjoying doing things I used to like, to just start crying suddenly and feeling that you really lost everything you cared for... Don't want to pry any further on that but I really hope sooner rather than later they are able to realize that it was not their fault... I just didn't want to feel anymore pain... I really hope everything goes as planned.
My method will be SN stat dose I would just be using
Ibuprofen
Primperan
Milk of magnesia
SN
I will be in my hotel room in approximately 6 hours more, I will be listening to a small playlist for around an hour. In my country, bathtubs in houses are not common so I will enjoy one last while listening to music and in exactly one hour, will mix the SN in as little water as possible and drink it.
Oh I almost forgot, I followed the "dietary supplement for the SN method" with almonds... Sorry I don't remember the name of the threat but it was really interesting. I would like to provide you as much information as I could, unluckily I wouldn't be able to give any feedback if it works (GOSHH HOPE IT WORKS). I have my confort items with me, I feel as ready as I can be. Thank you for reading me during my final moments. Wish the best for all of you and I hope from the bottom of my heart that you find peace.
Edit Will add the supplementary diet here thanks for the detailed explanation
I know I haven't really been here for too long and this group did not encourage or affected my decision in any way. Instead, I was able to see some caring and sensitive people that worry sincerely for others. I was able to talk to some of you more than others but that doesn't mean that I didn't notice other members being really nice to each other. I have been watching from the distance haha just kidding, I sound like a stalker haha... Well I hope we would have been able to met in different circumstances but life is like this... Thanks to this community I have been able to cope with the days prior to ctb a little bit better... Used to cry too much, it got reduced to half of it thanks to reading some threats and posts... It saddens me to think of my loved ones but I hope one day they are able to understand that I couldn't control my thoughts anymore, not only because I could see all of the decisions I regreted like a movie in my head but because gradually this started to become a physical pain... Rapid heart beat, shortness of breath, pain in the chest... Feeling completely numb, not even enjoying doing things I used to like, to just start crying suddenly and feeling that you really lost everything you cared for... Don't want to pry any further on that but I really hope sooner rather than later they are able to realize that it was not their fault... I just didn't want to feel anymore pain... I really hope everything goes as planned.
My method will be SN stat dose I would just be using
Ibuprofen
Primperan
Milk of magnesia
SN
I will be in my hotel room in approximately 6 hours more, I will be listening to a small playlist for around an hour. In my country, bathtubs in houses are not common so I will enjoy one last while listening to music and in exactly one hour, will mix the SN in as little water as possible and drink it.
Oh I almost forgot, I followed the "dietary supplement for the SN method" with almonds... Sorry I don't remember the name of the threat but it was really interesting. I would like to provide you as much information as I could, unluckily I wouldn't be able to give any feedback if it works (GOSHH HOPE IT WORKS). I have my confort items with me, I feel as ready as I can be. Thank you for reading me during my final moments. Wish the best for all of you and I hope from the bottom of my heart that you find peace.
Edit Will add the supplementary diet here thanks for the detailed explanation
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/1-week-dietary-supplement-regimen-sn.25744/
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