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Lexandro

Lexandro

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Dec 3, 2024
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So my first attempt didn't go as planned, still here.

I know SN will never be an option given where I live, and I know everyone here says OTC isn't an option but I decided to go with it as they are easy to obtain.

I went with 3000mg option, all online searches suggested this had a very high risk of CTB. 1500 and above is supposed to be enough. Won't go into details of expected symptoms here (unsure if that's allowed) but it should have sufficed, albeit very unpleasant.

I did have delirium, saw people that weren't there, confirmed by my partner. They were so realistic it was real to me, best hallucinations I have ever had (tried other drugs a few times when I was younger). This was by far the most realistic, nothing else has ever come close. It was flawless, only when my partner called me did I even realise lol. Don't remember all of it but wasn't unpleasant in the least. It was actually really fun, weirdly.

Partner came home from work and took me to Hospital. They didn't actually intervene much, stuck me on heart monitoring equipment but no medication or try to make me throw up she told me. She stayed with me the whole time, confirmed hospital did nothing but monitor me. Mental Health team came to visit before they would release me, but you just need to tell them what they want to hear. Stupid really.

Next time will be 6000mg, finger crossed that will do the job.

Have to go to 6 different pharmacies this time as what I used was a controlled OTC so they keep an eye how often and restrict amount.

Once I'm good to go I'll repost, maybe a few weeks guess if I don't reply after that it done the job.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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good luck, I wish you the best
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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You can talk about expected symptoms. Curious as to what you took.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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