Discussion Your last day

[Castles]

I'm sure what time tomorrow, sometime after the gf leaves and i have hours upon hours alone but tomorrow is the day.

I don't want to sit around miserable, I think I'm just going to grab a nice bacon and egg breakfast, slam down a few cups of endless coffee, go buy myself a mickey of whisky and afterwards sit down with my phone off watch my favorite movies.

Once my drink help calm my nerves down is when I want to go. Just a regular day of simple things I enjoy to keep my spirits content and ease my way through it all. There's no reason to dread it all when the entire point is not to suffer any longer.

I thought some of you might like to share how you'd spend your last day here.

 

[k75]

I don't really know how I want to spend it, but I do want to make sure all the things I wanted to get done are finished ahead of time so I don't feel rushed. I want to be able to relax as long as I want and not feel external pressure.

I'm afraid I maybe only have a couple of weeks left, so I really need to get serious about making that happen.

Aside from having all my exit chores done, I really have no goals.

 

[trigzter]

No judgement. Spend your time as you see fit. May your ride be as painless as possible. Id grab a cheesesteak and listen to some of my favorite songs.Be at peace bro or sister

 

[fettuccinee]

I honestly want to right now if I were able to; idec how my day went.

 

[Castles]

I honestly want to right now if I were able to; idec how my day went.

Sorry to hear that. I get the feeling, I hope it passes my friend.

No judgement. Spend your time as you see fit. May your ride be as painless as possible. Id grab a cheesesteak and listen to some of my favorite songs.Be at peace bro or sister

The simple things are the greatest.

I don't really know how I want to spend it, but I do want to make sure all the things I wanted to get done are finished ahead of time so I don't feel rushed. I want to be able to relax as long as I want and not feel external pressure.

I'm afraid I maybe only have a couple of weeks left, so I really need to get serious about making that happen.

Aside from having all my exit chores done, I really have no goals.

It doesn't have to be about goals. Just keeping happy!

 

[BPD_LE]

I'm going on a last adventure. Backpack of everything I need and then just walk into the wilderness. My last hours will be spent full of the beauty of nature and its wildlife. Perfection.

 

[wuumb]

That would be either a day full of enjoying images, videos and choir singing from ITC (Marcello Bacci has received singing alot), 2 or 3 Bashar sessions and best-of-snippets, the music playlist I have done of about 8 hours and 2 or 3 channelings of Jesus, Yogananda or God him/herself (Logos).
OR
Trying to endure walking around outside, this one guy spitting in front of me as an attempt at provoking me and showing me the disgust he associates with my look, hearing 2 people telling me to go f myself because I am using the 2-shopping-bag-limit and they think i am one of these "disgusting, dirty, worthless scumbags" of homeless people, like ewwwwww, eeeeewww, i hate you sooo much, and I am wearing freaking good clothes and look at my shoes, yo!
Police searching me because my behavior is 5% out of the normal behavior for people and suspect that I have eeeeviiil druuugs with me,
trying to enjoy this beautiful tree and the birds flying around then a car coming around the corner making noise and this guy coming towards me is exhaling his cigarette smoke right in my face,
stepping in dog poop,
sitting on this wonderful bench under a tree then a guy doing this strange looking at me and raising his head gesture,
dad telling me that he was always right in saying i should've done this and that,
bird pooping on my head,
dog barking at me for no reason,
coming home and thinking, okay, that's it.

 

[Qverty7455]

alone and unwanted excatly how I was feeling most of my life

 

[Heart of Ice]

Unfortunately I'm living in a shared flat so I'd have to put my plan into motion as soon as he leaves in the morning. No last day, only a last morning and one anxious night.

 

[n0505]

play with my pet all day long as usual.

 

[JTG1972]

The ideal would be to have a long day with my wife. Play games we like together, hold her one last time, eat her cooking and play with our cats, then lie down in bed and just drift off and go in my sleep with her beside me.

Realistically, I'll probably clean the house, make sure the cats have ample food and water (as I mean to do it once she leaves to visit family for a few days/week), maybe put on some old music and make sure my note is where the cats won't kick it over or mess with it. Then just settle in in the quiet, alone, and let myself go.

 

[Astral316]

I'll probably eat a hearty meal, down a six pack, watch tv all day and maybe club the seal a few times if you gnome sayin.

 

[Meppitech]

My last days will be spent trying to not contact my wife once last time because I know then it will mean people with start looking for me. I do plan to go bowling with my kids one last time.

 

[Swoods]

I think I will spend a few hours fishing while I review my life and decision to check out. Sit down, have a beer and take my SN.

 

[drake4871]

I'm going on a last adventure. Backpack of everything I need and then just walk into the wilderness. My last hours will be spent full of the beauty of nature and its wildlife. Perfection.

That's awesome, I was planning on doing that as well; but I think it might be better for everyone's mental state to see my body and not think I went missing.

Don't drink too much alcohol OP, sloppy mistakes could be terrible. That being said I don't think I'm going to do anything special on the day, except get out of my head enough to beat SI

 

[Castles]

That's awesome, I was planning on doing that as well; but I think it might be better for everyone's mental state to see my body and not think I went missing.

Don't drink too much alcohol OP, sloppy mistakes could be terrible. That being said I don't think I'm going to do anything special on the day, except get out of my head enough to beat SI

I have my setup done and ready now just grabbed a burger and micke, its all stable and good now im just relaxing before i go with my last four hours of peace
I will say this place has been helpful the last few days. Thanks for that guys

 

[drake4871]

I have my setup done and ready now just grabbed a burger and micke, its all stable and good now im just relaxing before i go with my last four hours of peace
I will say this place has been helpful the last few days. Thanks for that guys

That better be the best burger! Drink more of that mickey and it'll taste better :) . Best of luck with your journey

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i'll spend my last day crying alone and being unwanted. i'll listen for the last time so many lies from the people i love. than if i'm about to go back with my suicide plan i'll remember about all the pain this stupid life caused me without reasons since i was born. i'm sure i'll find the strength to kill myself. also i'll watch the black sunset going down for the night then i'll pass out

 

[Castles]

That better be the best burger! Drink more of that mickey and it'll taste better :) . Best of luck with your journey

Lol it was great, i know my setup is ive checked a few times but i just wrote a three page note, never thought id leave one lol

I feel its close now. I cant stay much longer honestly my ex got me kicked out of my home and took my kid away because she lied and afforded lawyers i couldnt to sell the lie. Im just kind of taking in my last bit of living now i feel like. I just want peace and to not live every fucking day with weight on my chest anymore not knowing whats going to happen anymore.

 

[drake4871]

Lol it was great, i know my setup is ive checked a few times but i just wrote a three page note, never thought id leave one lol

I feel its close now. I cant stay much longer honestly my ex got me kicked out of my home and took my kid away because she lied and afforded lawyers i couldnt to sell the lie. Im just kind of taking in my last bit of living now i feel like. I just want peace and to not live every fucking day with weight on my chest anymore not knowing whats going to happen anymore.

That's really rough man, I wish you the best

 

[Dawn0071111]

A beautiful forest view/champange/my favorite songs.

 

[snowball]

I want to spend my last day preparing a dinner and with the selection of my clothes. I will definitely travel first class on my last journey.

 

[Meppitech]

As it nears, the overwhelming feeling to contact my wife to soften the effects on her for the rest of her life grows. My kids are too young to understand so I feel any attempt there would be more damaging. I have a friend that I've been talking to that may be able to give them some insight later when they are older. If I'm not able to keep myself from contacting my wife, my last few hours will be hectic. I don't plan on revealing my plans but I'm court ordered not to contact her so things may get hairy. Trying to plan it out so I can't be found somewhere in the woods to negate any chance of disruption. Not exactly optimal, but trying to put her at peace as much as possible.