You know you're in a bad place when you spend Christmas on SaSu...

[Sleeper System]

That probably sounds more judgemental than I intended but It's probably true.
I have nothing going on and don't even celebrate this consumerist holiday.
I'm struggling to get to sleep even though if I knew Id have to go to work tomorrow (which I don't) I would be knocked out.
So I guess im here with all the other lonely sad people lol might doordash some food and try to watch a tv show.
What's everyone else doing on this most not really special holiday?

 

[colorlesshue]

i had a nice day i think, ate with family and opened a present early and baked with my brothers kid. then i got dumped through text and wound up here after a month of trying to stay clean off of s/h. i fucking hate everything

 

[Sleeper System]

i had a nice day i think, ate with family and opened a present early and baked with my brothers kid. then i got dumped through text and wound up here after a month of trying to stay clean off of s/h. i fucking hate everything

It's vexing how easy it is for things to do a 180 like that.
I remember when being dumped over text was a whole big thing. In 2023, why do people still act surprised by it?
That's just a new story in the book of your life. Dumped on christmas/christmas eve.
It's like... the other person knows what day it is. It's cleary on purpose with an agenda.

 

[colorlesshue]

It's vexing how easy it is for things to do a 180 like that.
I remember when being dumped over text was a whole big thing. In 2023, why do people still act surprised by it?
That's just a new story in the book of your life. Dumped on christmas/christmas eve.
It's like... the other person knows what day it is. It's cleary on purpose with an agenda.

yeah, i guess. it just fucking stung i guess and now i just feel empty

 

[Sleeper System]

yeah, i guess. it just fucking stung i guess and now i just feel empty

Break ups rarely come out of the blue. You didn't suspect anything?

 

[PuppyinPain]

That probably sounds more judgemental than I intended but It's probably true.
I have nothing going on and don't even celebrate this consumerist holiday.
I'm struggling to get to sleep even though if I knew Id have to go to work tomorrow (which I don't) I would be knocked out.
So I guess im here with all the other lonely sad people lol might doordash some food and try to watch a tv show.
What's everyone else doing on this most not really special holiday?


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I'm getting drunk and watching YouTube while I eat chocolate lollllllll honestly the drinking is making me feel worse but idc it gives me at least something to do tonight

 

[jbear824]

I'm alone. Got no weed. Feel like shit physically. Am broke so I couldn't buy anyone gifts. Not even for my best friend. I wish I was fucking dead lol

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Although I don't celebrate Xmas I thought maybe this terrible year could have a somewhat "ok" ending with an excursion. I was wrong, my day got fucked up yesterday for a stupid reason and now I'm considering ending the excursion. I can also rot at home and nobody is around to fuck things up.

 

[Sleeper System]

I'm getting drunk and watching YouTube while I eat chocolate lollllllll honestly the drinking is making me feel worse but idc it gives me at least something to do tonight

Alcohol and chocolate seem like a horrible mixture lol my stomach just growled in protest.

 

[raindrops]

Laying on a mattress on the floor with all of my things in black bags. I want my furniture. I can't take this feeling. 15 years with this person and this is the first Christmas without him, he left me on the 15th of December. I'll go feed my cat I suppose. I'm so lonely. Hoping things will improve for me in the new year and if not I'm waiting for a nice day and then I'm gone for good.

 

[Disappointered]

Distracted myself with video games and felt pathetic for doing so. Silence makes me uneasy. I fear the future. I hate the world and my life in it.

 

[leloyon]

I already posted this earlier.

And now it's 8AM. Still feel like shit, I haven't had a single moment of holiday spirit and for the most part have had that "can-barely-perform-basic-tasks" depression this month, today being no different.

 

[soleil]

It's a lonely life

 

[Leavesfromthevine]

I'm back and forth between YouTube and just laying in the darkness while existing. YouTube helps drown out the neighbors having a good time with their family.

 

[bpdsaddylife]

That probably sounds more judgemental than I intended but It's probably true.
I have nothing going on and don't even celebrate this consumerist holiday.
I'm struggling to get to sleep even though if I knew Id have to go to work tomorrow (which I don't) I would be knocked out.
So I guess im here with all the other lonely sad people lol might doordash some food and try to watch a tv show.
What's everyone else doing on this most not really special holiday?


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Honestly whenever I feel sad I come onto here and it makes me feel better. Being able to come to a safe space where no one shames you for feeling suicidal is so lovely.

 

[UKscotty]

It's just another day, try not to be sucked into the capitalist hype.

Unless you are the rare religious person, Christmas is a con to part the sheep of their money.

 

[PuppyinPain]

Alcohol and chocolate seem like a horrible mixture lol my stomach just growled in protest.

Honestly yoiour porbbay right but leyst celebrate!!!! Merry chrsitmas lol

 

[SilentSadness]

To me spending time on this website is the most peaceful way to spend my time, away from the toxicity of others and life in general.

 

[until death]

I feel comfortable here

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't think that title is applicable to me. Before I came on this site, I used to spend every day being alone miserably. Don't get me wrong, I'm still alone but at least I can be alone on this site now instead of being alone on some pro life place om reddit or something. I don't celebrate christmas and this day is just the same as any other for me but I feel better now that I'm on SaSu this time around. Point is, I *was* in a bad place just rotting alone in my bed. Now I can at least rot alone but on here instead which is an improvement for me

 

[SMmetalhead36]

I'll be drinking and getting high and sleeping. I don't celebrate this stupid holiday.

 

[Kit1]

I have family and friends around me and managed to cook decent meals for everyone. I just feel so lonely - talking and smiling with everyone and inside, I just feel so exhausted and in despair.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I don't really see my wish to die as being in a bad place, rather wanting to eternally cease existing is all that makes sense to me, I'm not the problem but rather existence is. I see it as something so delusional to see existence as desirable in the first place, as to have the ability to exist is very burdensome, existence itself is futile and just causes suffering. And this day is just another day for me, in my case I'm not that interested in commercialised toxic positivity.

 

[woundedanimal]

Yep. 9 am Christmas morning and I'm here because I was kept up all night by someone yelling at me that I'm useless, stupid, and that I should just go kill myself. If I wasn't worried about everyone around me thinking I permanently ruined Christmas, I would just try it today. This is the worst day of the year.

 

[breezeboy]

Is that a gif of L?

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'm just so beyond any holidays or other cultural societal must do's .

Imo all of it is all subjective bs. "You have to celebrate holidays , u have to get into a relationship, u must have kids , care about this or that". Where is it written that I should do any of that or anything at all or believe anything?

I don't want to buy presents or feel different because they say it's christmas, I don't want to have kids or get into a relationship even though they say that brings u so much joy.

None of that is meaningful important or necessary . Every thing in life is meaningless. The only thing that is real to me is avoiding extreme pain and suffering

What will matter in 200 years , 1000 years , a trillion years?

 

[PA𝖨𝑁]

Not celebrating aswell, i dont have people to hang with.. i'm staying in my apartment, felt lonely but did talk to some good people in chat, which made things better.
Will most likely sleep through it

 

[oddetoad]

Christmas , Haloween , Donald Trumps Birthday

It's all the same to me ngl .. Just another day in prison

 

[Unattainable666]

That probably sounds more judgemental than I intended but It's probably true.
I have nothing going on and don't even celebrate this consumerist holiday.
I'm struggling to get to sleep even though if I knew Id have to go to work tomorrow (which I don't) I would be knocked out.
So I guess im here with all the other lonely sad people lol might doordash some food and try to watch a tv show.
What's everyone else doing on this most not really special holiday?


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You all are the closest thing to a family I have. So yup spending it with my family (SS)

 

[alwayssearching202]

Agree. I am just so thankful to have found this community. At least we are alone together.