Venting "you have so much left to live for"

[DaisiesRegrets]

As time goes by, this saying has brought more and more pain and hatred into my heart. I believe this might be one of the most tone deaf things you could say to someone who's contemplating ctb. I'm glad that the life that you've lived has given you the confidence to believe that the future is bright, but it's done nothing but the opposite for me. My whole life, I've only ever heard of people talking about how they "miss the old days" or "miss when they were kids". Almost like it's more likely that life just gets worse from here. But what do you do when you can't miss the past, because the past was just as shitty as it is right now. I guess all you can do is look to the future, but all the future brings me is hesitation and dread. The idea that I have a whole future ahead of me scares me more than anything. I've only been around for 23 years, but those years have been almost nothing but a slowly burning mediocrity at best, and an excruciating searing pain at worst. Why would things get better? Is something gonna come down and save me and show me that life is worth living? Yeah right. If anything, something will come down and finally push me to the edge. And at this point, I just want that to happen already. I'm just too tired at this point.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Mm, the saying of "having much to live for" is indeed annoying. (I'm 21 btw, have the random death wish sometimes, but it remains at the wish stage only, and fades)

"I hope conditions improve" is a saying I sometimes use, since "hope things gets better" somehow feels worse to say, improvement could be anything from large to slight, while better seems to only allow for big steps.

Tho, sometimes, emoticons may be preferred, in that case:

^u^ ^w^ ^u^

 

[walking_dead]

As time goes by, this saying has brought more and more pain and hatred into my heart. I believe this might be one of the most tone deaf things you could say to someone who's contemplating ctb. I'm glad that the life that you've lived has given you the confidence to believe that the future is bright, but it's done nothing but the opposite for me. My whole life, I've only ever heard of people talking about how they "miss the old days" or "miss when they were kids". Almost like it's more likely that life just gets worse from here. But what do you do when you can't miss the past, because the past was just as shitty as it is right now. I guess all you can do is look to the future, but all the future brings me is hesitation and dread. The idea that I have a whole future ahead of me scares me more than anything. I've only been around for 23 years, but those years have been almost nothing but a slowly burning mediocrity at best, and an excruciating searing pain at worst. Why would things get better? Is something gonna come down and save me and show me that life is worth living? Yeah right. If anything, something will come down and finally push me to the edge. And at this point, I just want that to happen already. I'm just too tired at this point.


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I think I'll re-read oyasumi punpun before I head out.

 

[Esc9434]

Speaking as someone older, your youth is an asset.

Traditionally, you have plenty of time to correct the ship.

However, the meaning behind the thread title is very outdated.

I would say today's world is too unforgiving to those who cannot find a path much earlier.

Even life is hard in the mighty US with the rise of AI, the outsourcing of white-collared/manufacturing jobs, private investment firms buying up residential properties, reduction of social safety nets under the current administration, and etc.

Before anyone bites my head off, I can understand if someone wants to ctb at a young age if all they ever known is trauma or experienced a trauma too great to recover from.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all and I also have so much dread for what lies ahead in this cruel, futile existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what, I find it so unbearable how a human can suffer for so long in this existence, I find it so insensitive when people say things like that.