You ever dreamt your ideal life and then woke up to reality

[Lost Magic]

Have you ever had an amazing dream of a more idyllic life and then woke up to your awakened reality? I dreamt I lived in a beautiful coastal town with lots of beautiful people and no mental illness, then I woke up to my horrible neighbours drunk and screaming at each other. lol Just shoot me now ffs

 

[Snake of Eden]

Bro this kinda post belongs to the offtopic not the suicide section

 

[FuneralCry]

I just have nightmares. There is no peace even when I am asleep. There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. Nothing would make me want to live. I hate waking up, it is so depressing. All I want is to not exist.
I used to have really noisy neighbours, and it was awful. People can ruin your life.

 

[Lost Magic]

Bro this kinda post belongs to the offtopic not the suicide section

It isn't off topic though. My dreams are better than my reality and they remind me of why I need to be gone. It is completely on topic. I live for good dreams but then I need to wake up

I just have nightmares. There is no peace even when I am asleep. There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. Nothing would make me want to live. I hate waking up, it is so depressing. All I want is to not exist.
I used to have really noisy neighbours, and it was awful. People can ruin your life.

Yeah, I hear you. I used to get frequent nightmares, but not so much anymore. I think it is because my awakened state is a living nightmare and the dreams balance that out somehow.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I mostly have anxiety dreams and nightmares, but sometimes I'll get lucky and have the most wonderful, beautiful dreams where I'm so happy and life feels good and I'm healthy...and then I wake up. I really appreciate those infrequent glimpses into what a happy, healthy, good life might feel/be like but it's a double-edged sword kind of thing because, like you OP, I then wake up to my hellish real life and the glaring contrast is soulcrushing and makes me even more resolved to end this mess - soon.