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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
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Have you ever had an amazing dream of a more idyllic life and then woke up to your awakened reality? I dreamt I lived in a beautiful coastal town with lots of beautiful people and no mental illness, then I woke up to my horrible neighbours drunk and screaming at each other. lol Just shoot me now ffs :))
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
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Bro this kinda post belongs to the offtopic not the suicide section
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I just have nightmares. There is no peace even when I am asleep. There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. Nothing would make me want to live. I hate waking up, it is so depressing. All I want is to not exist.
I used to have really noisy neighbours, and it was awful. People can ruin your life.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
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Bro this kinda post belongs to the offtopic not the suicide section
It isn't off topic though. My dreams are better than my reality and they remind me of why I need to be gone. It is completely on topic. I live for good dreams but then I need to wake up
I just have nightmares. There is no peace even when I am asleep. There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. Nothing would make me want to live. I hate waking up, it is so depressing. All I want is to not exist.
I used to have really noisy neighbours, and it was awful. People can ruin your life.
Yeah, I hear you. I used to get frequent nightmares, but not so much anymore. I think it is because my awakened state is a living nightmare and the dreams balance that out somehow.
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
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I mostly have anxiety dreams and nightmares, but sometimes I'll get lucky and have the most wonderful, beautiful dreams where I'm so happy and life feels good and I'm healthy...and then I wake up. I really appreciate those infrequent glimpses into what a happy, healthy, good life might feel/be like but it's a double-edged sword kind of thing because, like you OP, I then wake up to my hellish real life and the glaring contrast is soulcrushing and makes me even more resolved to end this mess - soon.
 
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