disabledlife
Arcanist
- Jun 5, 2020
- 411
I have a project, which is close to my heart, since my childhood, and that is to disappear voluntarily, because I was born badly (born disabled in fact!!!!), I was beaten, almost never cared for, poorly fed , treated as an imaginary patient (to save parents money), I never had justice in my country, especially against the bullies in the schools of my childhood, and even the entire town of my childhood, which did not hesitate to use me for my intellectual abilities without any thanks or kindness. I wanted to disappear, to punish my family, my entourage, my city, my country, then from CTB in the end!
I'm not going to tell my story for the umpteenth time, visible elsewhere in this forum (studies, shitty High IQ association, childhood, school bullying, cyberbullying...). It's the only forum that allows you to talk about your anger, express your sadness, your feelings, etc., without any censorship, the only place where I felt listened to, regardless of my opinions and my anger. Thank you to you and to the moderation of SaSu, for keeping this ultimate community alive, because I no longer have anyone to talk to, no friends, I have also rejected humans overall, disgusted!!!
I lost my studies, because of my health, I have an ugly, rotten, painful body, I am alone, rejected
To be able to disappear, you still need to have good health to live completely independently, without depending on anyone!
I am in a situation where I receive meager income from my country, just enough to feed me, I really struggle to make ends meet, through other small means of earning money (like blood tests). paid consumer products). And if I work officially, I lose all this income linked to my disabilities, and I have even more taxes, constraints, but I still remain disabled! My country has never understood that disability can never be cured like that, through work, on the other hand it always understands that we must procreate at all costs, regardless of the capacity and desire to be a parent, regardless of whether you love your kids or not, they don't care.
I moved a long time ago, it was administrative hell, because, in addition to the usual paperwork, I had to change all my doctors, move all my files related to disabilities, and even my human assistants!! An independent person does not need human help, even if it is from time to time! But a severely disabled person is different.
Luckily, I can still drive vehicles!
As I have a meager income, which will never change, my move (the one which allowed me to leave, finally, my childhood town) was extremely painful, because I had to pay the companies in several installments, and even asking for help from my family, only two people, who have died now (illness and old age) I had to eat leftovers, even I almost went through the trash, and I had old clothes as a donation! On the other hand, if you have children, especially large families, my country finances the entire move and gives absolute priority to finding accommodation! I hate my country!
I cannot change names or first names, because medieval laws still prohibit it! I am condemned to keep my last name which has a bad reputation!
Staying in this life, I have nightmares. I have already made, in this SaSu forum, some topics, to ask how to disappear voluntarily, and I thank the person who told me about Japan which helps people to disappear, but you still have to have a Japanese face, and not a European (so as not to be spotted, unless other Europeans, Africans, Latin Americans, etc., have already taken the plunge in Japan), not to be disabled, to be autonomous, and therefore to be discreet, then finally, this help is paid, relatively expensive.
Frankly, if I had a miracle to disappear, to start a new end of life, without the demons of my childhood, of my past, then of CTB in peace, precisely without these demons and this past, it would be great!
I'm not going to tell my story for the umpteenth time, visible elsewhere in this forum (studies, shitty High IQ association, childhood, school bullying, cyberbullying...). It's the only forum that allows you to talk about your anger, express your sadness, your feelings, etc., without any censorship, the only place where I felt listened to, regardless of my opinions and my anger. Thank you to you and to the moderation of SaSu, for keeping this ultimate community alive, because I no longer have anyone to talk to, no friends, I have also rejected humans overall, disgusted!!!
I lost my studies, because of my health, I have an ugly, rotten, painful body, I am alone, rejected
To be able to disappear, you still need to have good health to live completely independently, without depending on anyone!
I am in a situation where I receive meager income from my country, just enough to feed me, I really struggle to make ends meet, through other small means of earning money (like blood tests). paid consumer products). And if I work officially, I lose all this income linked to my disabilities, and I have even more taxes, constraints, but I still remain disabled! My country has never understood that disability can never be cured like that, through work, on the other hand it always understands that we must procreate at all costs, regardless of the capacity and desire to be a parent, regardless of whether you love your kids or not, they don't care.
I moved a long time ago, it was administrative hell, because, in addition to the usual paperwork, I had to change all my doctors, move all my files related to disabilities, and even my human assistants!! An independent person does not need human help, even if it is from time to time! But a severely disabled person is different.
Luckily, I can still drive vehicles!
As I have a meager income, which will never change, my move (the one which allowed me to leave, finally, my childhood town) was extremely painful, because I had to pay the companies in several installments, and even asking for help from my family, only two people, who have died now (illness and old age) I had to eat leftovers, even I almost went through the trash, and I had old clothes as a donation! On the other hand, if you have children, especially large families, my country finances the entire move and gives absolute priority to finding accommodation! I hate my country!
I cannot change names or first names, because medieval laws still prohibit it! I am condemned to keep my last name which has a bad reputation!
Staying in this life, I have nightmares. I have already made, in this SaSu forum, some topics, to ask how to disappear voluntarily, and I thank the person who told me about Japan which helps people to disappear, but you still have to have a Japanese face, and not a European (so as not to be spotted, unless other Europeans, Africans, Latin Americans, etc., have already taken the plunge in Japan), not to be disabled, to be autonomous, and therefore to be discreet, then finally, this help is paid, relatively expensive.
Frankly, if I had a miracle to disappear, to start a new end of life, without the demons of my childhood, of my past, then of CTB in peace, precisely without these demons and this past, it would be great!