Reiraku

Reiraku

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May 5, 2020
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There seem to be three type of spenders when faced with imminent death:
1. People that spend all their money to have as much joy as possible before they die
2. People that don't really change their spending behavior and continue as usual
3. People that donate most of their money to charity or leave it for their families
I would consider myself the first type. I don't even have that much money comparatively, but the little savings I do have, I spend rather lavishly. I eat out almost daily, bought a bunch of new clothes and hobby-related articles and I plan to take a trip to the countryside as well. Since this is anonymous and all, I can also say that I thought about visiting prostitutes once they are available for business again, so I know what it's like to have sex. I just try to make life as bearable as possible before my untimely death and probably won't leave much money behind, except for my materialistic goods. It would frustrate me too much knowing I wasted all this time working my shit job and in the end I can't even spend the little money I earned from it. Besides that, I have somewhat of a "it doesn't matter at this point anyway" mentality.
Donating money to charity sounds noble on paper, but this is completely out of the question since I don't trust them at all. Especially since we had a scandal here very recently, where money was embezzled en masse and CEOs of charity organizations were revealed driving in luxury cars and having salaries beyond good and evil. I'd rather burn it all then give it to them. And my family is left with my materialistic goods I'll leave behind, no more. Not only don't I have the slightest sympathy for them, but they aren't dependent on those pathetic 2000€ my life amounted to. Besides that, the prices for a funeral here are an absolute scam and I won't take any part of it by cutting back just to leave money for those people behind. I'm fucking dead, I don't care if my tombstone is cooler than that of the corpse 5 meters next to me. They could just throw me in a ditch somewhere or dig a hole in a forest and dump me there, I honestly couldn't care less. If they decide the spend more than the absolute minimum, well that's on them.
What about you guys, those faced with imminent death, did you notice any changes in how you handle money and if yes, how?
 
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BeeLoyal

BeeLoyal

Is Existence Just A Test?
Apr 27, 2020
105
There seem to be three type of spenders when faced with imminent death:
1. People that spend all their money to have as much joy as possible before they die
2. People that don't really change their spending behavior and continue as usual
3. People that donate most of their money to charity or leave it for their families
I would consider myself the first type. I don't even have that much money comparatively, but the little savings I do have, I spend rather lavishly. I eat out almost daily, bought a bunch of new clothes and hobby-related articles and I plan to take a trip to the countryside as well. Since this is anonymous and all, I can also say that I thought about visiting prostitutes once they are available for business again, so I know what it's like to have sex. I just try to make life as bearable as possible before my untimely death and probably won't leave much money behind, except for my materialistic goods. It would frustrate me too much knowing I wasted all this time working my shit job and in the end I can't even spend the little money I earned from it. Besides that, I have somewhat of a "it doesn't matter at this point anyway" mentality.
Donating money to charity sounds noble on paper, but this is completely out of the question since I don't trust them at all. Especially since we had a scandal here very recently, where money was embezzled en masse and CEOs of charity organizations were revealed driving in luxury cars and having salaries beyond good and evil. I'd rather burn it all then give it to them. And my family is left with my materialistic goods I'll leave behind, no more. Not only don't I have the slightest sympathy for them, but they aren't dependent on those pathetic 2000€ my life amounted to. Besides that, the prices for a funeral here are an absolute scam and I won't take any part of it by cutting back just to leave money for those people behind. I'm fucking dead, I don't care if my tombstone is cooler than that of the corpse 5 meters next to me. They could just throw me in a ditch somewhere or dig a hole in a forest and dump me there, I honestly couldn't care less. If they decide the spend more than the absolute minimum, well that's on them.
What about you guys, those faced with imminent death, did you notice any changes in how you handle money and if yes, how?
Since I am struggling with money I am number 2. But I will try to have some fun before I ctb.
 
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SpareWheel

SpareWheel

I go on holidays by mistake
May 4, 2020
354
I'm 3. Although I have spent a large whack of money in the past 6 months on frivolities, went away 3 times in short succession in nice hotels, ate like a King, drank like a rapper, bought pressies for people etc.

Everything else I'm leaving to my Mam, with a bit to my ex who I know is in a bit of financial trouble due to furloughing. Clothes (I have a lot, worth a small fortune) are going to my young cousin who's into designer labels as much as me - TVs, phones, tablets, laptop, consoles and games etc are going to a childrens home. If anyone wants about 30 bottles of cologne hit me up, I don't have anyone for them :D all Gucci, CL, Boss etc, no Hai Karate or Lynx/Axe type shite.

I was tempted to be #1 for a long while, but I just couldn't be arsed with doing a Brewster, when you stop counting the pennies you realise it's actually quite hard to spend money without having things to show for it. The only realistic thing I could spend a lot of money on and get joy from is luxury holidays, and that ain't happening thanks to China. Or there's high class prostitutes and mountains of coke I guess, never been my style to go with a brass though, and there's a major drugs shortage, be hard enough finding a shhmoke and a pancake - kudos to anyone who gets that reference.
 
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Wheelz1985

Wheelz1985

Ready to roll out.
Mar 19, 2020
39
I'm so ready to die. I don't care where my $ or my possessions go. But I suppose, I hope it goes to someone who wont squander it. I even said this earlier..crazy you make a post soon after. Is it just me,or does the threads people on here make, a lot of the time correlate with something you may have said or thought?
 
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SpareWheel

SpareWheel

I go on holidays by mistake
May 4, 2020
354
I'm so ready to die. I don't care where my $ or my possessions go. But I suppose, I hope it goes to someone who wont squander it. I even said this earlier..crazy you make a post soon after. Is it just me,or does the threads people on here make, a lot of the time correlate with something you may have said or thought?

I think this site is so specific and aimed at such a niche audience, we're all thinking similar things at the same time often. I've noticed the same thing as you, a thread will appear discussing what I'd not long ago been thinking. Just a random bunch of misfits from all over the world, all walking the same road together in a way. Pain is universal, doesn't care about age, location, colour or gender. All of us are in the same sorry state.
 
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SleeplessSoul

SleeplessSoul

Student
Apr 10, 2020
131
I've got a fairly decent amount of savings so I'm going to leave most of it to the theatre I volunteer at. I don't trust my parents no to waste it. I have no clue what's going to happen to all my books and it weirdly makes me a bit sad.
 
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SpareWheel

SpareWheel

I go on holidays by mistake
May 4, 2020
354
I've got a fairly decent amount of savings so I'm going to leave most of it to the theatre I volunteer at. I don't trust my parents no to waste it. I have no clue what's going to happen to all my books and it weirdly makes me a bit sad.

If circumstances were different, I'd happily rehome them for you, I'm a big reader and have my own collection. But obviously I'm in the same boat as you, I think mine will go to an old folks home, the only bunch of people I think might still appreciate books in their proper form.

I tried selling them last year to clear them, didn't even get a sniff of interest despite listing them at pretty much 1p a book if I'd counted them all singularly. Charity shops near me won't even take them for free, they can't shift what they have unless I've been in there.
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
737
Unfortunately that's a no. Since I still live with my family I have to keep living the exact same way and keep studying. On the day I die I would probably be working and leave an assignment half done.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
I actually spend less because I stopped buying clothes and cosmetics.
Money can't buy me joy.
 
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Yomyom

Yomyom

Darker dearie, much darker
Feb 5, 2020
923
I actually spent a lot of money, amounts that I never thought I'll spend.
But I almost run over my savings, and I think I have just enough for the hotel room for my plan, so I can't really spend more money.
I'm thinking about taking a loan, I keep checking the rules of my bank to see if my family won't need to pay it after I'm gone
 
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SpareWheel

SpareWheel

I go on holidays by mistake
May 4, 2020
354
I actually spent a lot of money, amounts that I never thought I'll spend.
But I almost run over my savings, and I think I have just enough for the hotel room for my plan, so I can't really spend more money.
I'm thinking about taking a loan, I keep checking the rules of my bank to see if my family won't need to pay it after I'm gone


They won't, unless it's a loan obtained with a guarantor in case of default - if it's just a personal loan based off your credit status and standing with the bank then they'll have to spin for their money. If banks could chase families for unpaid personal loans, a lot of people would be absolutely fucked. Me included, I was my Dads NOK so I'd be saddled with whatever he owed, despite not speaking to him for years before his death.
 
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Kumachan

Specialist
Mar 5, 2020
396
Im thinking of a suicide vacation of sorts, the last trip, as soon as this fucking corona-circus is over. Other than that theres not many things to spend my money on before ctb
I will have to find a way to take SN with me on the plane and keep it for a couple of weeks. Any ideas how best to do that?
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
I've got a fairly decent amount of savings so I'm going to leave most of it to the theatre I volunteer at. I don't trust my parents no to waste it. I have no clue what's going to happen to all my books and it weirdly makes me a bit sad.
Hey post some books to me. :wink:
 
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Lilmeowssi

Lilmeowssi

I just want peace
Sep 6, 2019
77
If I actually ctb I'll donate all of my money. Family hates me and I obviously wouldn't need it.
 
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My_name_is_Luka

Specialist
Apr 28, 2020
309
number 3: I would leave all for my sister. She could live for about 20 years without working with those money.

I considered that I could allow myself to spend more money but I've always been in the habit of sparing money for a better future. In my actual condition I can't even enjoy a holiday.
Now that I'm considering to ctb, I only think that buying more stuff would only be a waste and a hindrance for those that would have to throw it away once i'm dead.
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,109
3. i would give it to my friends and parents, maybe they can make their life a little bit better..
Maybe i would reserve like 120 Euro/$ for my last days to have at least a few good meals before ctb:/
I would also give my "my more useful" stuffs like laptop to friends who could use it..

it makes me sad that all the projects i've been working on are gone then, i've spend many years on some coding projects but life just *****, i wish i could magically cure myself, it makes me so sad to leave all these projects behind.. but i wouldn't have completed them anyways due to the depression and lethargy..
 
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Cosmiq

Cosmiq

Student
May 7, 2020
197
I want to be cremated and tossed into space, so the money I have will be left with my family so they yeet me into deep space.
I don't have enough money to donate or leave to my family to where it feels like it'd be of any significance. And If I were gonna spend any additional money on myself, it'd be to make a video or something to be viewed after I'm dead.
 
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My_name_is_Luka

Specialist
Apr 28, 2020
309
it makes me sad that all the projects i've been working on are gone then, i've spend many years on some coding projects
That's the same for me! I've devoted my early career in gathering a highly demanded technical expertise and it is so sad that all my effort is going to die with me.
But it also made me wonder.. why should I care in leaving it to people that are happier than me? Why should I make them more successful.
 
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SleeplessSoul

SleeplessSoul

Student
Apr 10, 2020
131
If circumstances were different, I'd happily rehome them for you, I'm a big reader and have my own collection. But obviously I'm in the same boat as you, I think mine will go to an old folks home, the only bunch of people I think might still appreciate books in their proper form.

I tried selling them last year to clear them, didn't even get a sniff of interest despite listing them at pretty much 1p a book if I'd counted them all singularly. Charity shops near me won't even take them for free, they can't shift what they have unless I've been in there.

Hey post some books to me. :wink:

I have 468! Them and my programmes from different shows I've seen are my absolute prized possessions
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
I got myself into £13k worth of debt because I knew I planned to ctb and wanted to have some enjoyment beforehand. Did it give me enjoyment? Sure. But if I chose not to ctb I have huge consequences to live with.
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
360
Type 2. I'm trying to keep some in reserve, not spending on myself nor giving away, just in case my attempt is unsuccessful and I have to stay here a while longer.
 
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deadpixels

deadpixels

Student
May 2, 2020
133
I actually spend less because I stopped buying clothes and cosmetics.
Money can't buy me joy.

the same happened to me, I spend so little money that I managed to save a good amount. Now I have a a considerate amount of money and nothing to do with it.

and to think some people can't understand how even millionaires can have miserable lives...
 
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Tintypographer

Tintypographer

I am done as of 4-21-2023. Somewhere I am no more
Apr 29, 2020
471
I'm in the third boat. I don't have any debt and the house and vehicles are paid off and the kids education is sort of set up. I just want to leave it all to them in a trust fund whihc I already wrote up so that it's just there. I can state that money doesn't cure suicidal ideation. I have stuff and no debt related financial worries and I still hate myself and my life. I never feel successful and hate me and how my life choices have turned out. So the money I'll just leave behind. I do wish I could have caught a bunch of trout and had someone cook it form me which was something i saw at Grand Teton national park once but that wouldn't make me feel better, just a cool eoxerinece so I don't really care that much.
 
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terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
My mum will die before me so it'll just be me and my brother who is older than me. If i die before him the property and my savings (quite a bit) will go to him. If he dies before me and i'm last to go out of my immediate family the RSPCA will get the property and my savings. No way the governments getting it. Wish i had kids to pass it on to.
 
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enjolras

enjolras

Dead are useless if not to love the living more
Feb 13, 2020
1,293
For now, I haven't changed my habits. I never lived on large needs even if I can afford more
when my time comes, I hope my inheritance to go to a foundation for animal rights, oriented towards concrete activism or a vegan sanctuary/shelter which I know of has created a splendid eden place on a mission
 
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Alain

Alain

Student
Mar 11, 2020
107
I'm the fourth type of person. I have debts. Not super big debts, something around 1300€. But still, I will stay in the freezer for a while since my sister is not really rich and won't be able to pay for funerals. I don't want funerals but I know she will, that's one of my concerns.
 
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Bct

Bct

Disqualified from Being Human
Apr 20, 2020
419
At first it was going to be the combination of 1 & 3 because I still had some money left when I was going to CTB on March, but since I'm still alive and there are some unexpected expenses (not to mention I still haven't received April's wage), I have way less money to spend.
 
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Mud.

Mud.

Arcanist
Oct 27, 2018
403
I'm somewhere in between.

I'm alone. All the money I leave behind is going to an animal shelter. I've already notarized it. In the mean time I try to make life as pleasant as possible. I don't cook for myself anymore. I order out every night. I'm in Amsterdam, when I buy weed, I now buy the best weed. Etc.

I can't travel anymore because of my illness. So even if Corona wasn't a thing, that wouldn't have been an option. Fortunately I've been to some beautiful places in my life so I'm okay with that.

I've tried spending some more money but I've never been big on material stuff. I don't get much from it. At this point in my life, that's actually quite frustrating.
 
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FusRohDracarys

But what do I know
Mar 31, 2020
236
I'm probably #2. I'll already be leaving a couple of outstanding debts behind so I'd feel less guilty if I leave whatever money I have to cover that or funeral costs.
 
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Adamsnolife

Adamsnolife

Specialist
May 5, 2020
394
Well I have money at the moment. Mainly going on amazon and Netflix at the moment. I totally agree when you are dead, it's extremely hard to say take your debit card with you lol.
 

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