Years wasted

[divinemistress36]

Anyone else feel like they should have committed ctb years ago but everyone telling you it was going to get better stopped you? Now you feel Even more depressed cause life never did get better..

 

[SilentSuicidal]

I should have done it, but I didn't. And now I'm here and everything is the same as it was in the past. It sucks.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm in this boat, and I don't like it.

 

[violetskies]

exactly </3 i was meant to ctb years ago and now i feel like i'm living on borrowed time. nothing feels right.

 

[ChoclateIsSweet]

It's hard to make plans if you've never planned to live this long. I thought I would be dead the summer I made this account. That was almost 4 years ago. Whether we like it or not, time continues and even if things don't get better, tomorrow always come.

 

[uzuf86]

I actually never had to commit ctb and had a lot of hopes on my life years ago. But it was during those years I made a ton of mistakes, one after the other that added up and threw my life upside down now. My life got ruined because of a few poorly lived years

 

[caninecomposer]

I don't think I've ever seen someone's life actually become worth living after deciding to stick around. I want to avoid that unnecessary suffering.

 

[F@#$]

Yep,I still regret the day 30+ years ago. I took my dads pistol into the basement with every intention of blowing my brain out of the back of my skull. For whatever reason I chickened out. Needless to say I didn't get any "better". Now I'm just organizing my revenge on the assholes who've earned it and waiting for the last day.

 

[user933957]

yes, I've never felt so horrible in my life. it never got better, and it will never get better. everyone I knew would already have forgot about me if I had just done it years earlier, this sucks