Years of pain

[Tysiiaczeq]

Physical and mental. My body and brain just do not cooperate. even if I was mentally well, I couldn't escape this sentient meat prison. Years of abuse turned my body into an unrecognisable shell of my old self. How do I let go of the heinous crimes someone did against me? How do you recover when ur humanity is gone? Ctb is the only way I'll have peace:(
I hope u guys are okay xx

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Physical and mental. My body and brain just do not cooperate. even if I was mentally well, I couldn't escape this sentient meat prison. Years of abuse turned my body into an unrecognisable shell of my old self. How do I let go of the heinous crimes someone did against me? How do you recover when ur humanity is gone? Ctb is the only way I'll have peace:(
I hope u guys are okay xx

Damn, this sounds like a tough situation. I sincerely hope YOU are okay. You sound like you're having a rough time. Unfortunately I have no advice, as I haven't been in your shoes. Life can be cruel at times, and all I know how to do is push on, so I suppose that's the only advice I can give without sounding hypocritical:/.

I truly hope things get better for you though!

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrific what you have had to endure, this world certainly disgusts me and the fact that all this torture exists here just proves that this world is hell. There certainly does seem to be no peace and relief from suffering as long as one exists here and that is the unfortunate reality but I hope that you eventually find freedom from your torment.

 

[CandyK__]

So you say you've lost your humanity. I'd say a way to re-gain it, is to re-define what it means for you to feel human. Does it mean to feel emotions, connect with others or anything else. When you define what it means to you, you can try to look what made you lose it.

It might have been someone treating you WAY worse than you deserve. Everyone deserves to be treated with some respect. You're no worse than rest of people, we're all equally worthless, but it's not a bad thing. You can try to find comfort in that. If everyone is equally worthless, then why does somebody else get to make you feel so horrible?

The most intense feeling last the shortest, good and bad. The worst thing to do is to act on those feelings. Calm down and wait through worst. Don't force yourself to do anything, rest.

 

[Tysiiaczeq]

Damn, this sounds like a tough situation. I sincerely hope YOU are okay. You sound like you're having a rough time. Unfortunately I have no advice, as I haven't been in your shoes. Life can be cruel at times, and all I know how to do is push on, so I suppose that's the only advice I can give without sounding hypocritical:/.

I truly hope things get better for you though!

We are all hypocrites to some degree and I think that's only natural xx Thank you for ur kind words. I hope you're well!!x

That sounds really horrific what you have had to endure, this world certainly disgusts me and the fact that all this torture exists here just proves that this world is hell. There certainly does seem to be no peace and relief from suffering as long as one exists here and that is the unfortunate reality but I hope that you eventually find freedom from your torment.

Yes the world disgusts me too. We (humanity) had freedom to do anything we wanted with this planet and we decided to be cruel. You are right that life means pain, there is no living without negatives xx being alive means enduring whatever life throws at you, pain will either make or break a person. I truly believe it broke me. I wish to CTB as soon as I can. I hope your day is going okay, I hope you've been well xx thank you for ur kind words funeralcry. You truly understand and wish for others to feel better, I don't doubt that xx thanks again.

So you say you've lost your humanity. I'd say a way to re-gain it, is to re-define what it means for you to feel human. Does it mean to feel emotions, connect with others or anything else. When you define what it means to you, you can try to look what made you lose it.

It might have been someone treating you WAY worse than you deserve. Everyone deserves to be treated with some respect. You're no worse than rest of people, we're all equally worthless, but it's not a bad thing. You can try to find comfort in that. If everyone is equally worthless, then why does somebody else get to make you feel so horrible?

The most intense feeling last the shortest, good and bad. The worst thing to do is to act on those feelings. Calm down and wait through worst. Don't force yourself to do anything, rest.

That is definitely a very logical and nice way of thinking about it. It is comforting thank you. If we are all equal, no one is in the position to make me feel bad. This is a refreshing viewpoint so thank you for sharing! I dont know at what point I've lost my humanity, it just slipped away slowly. I dont even know what it means fully to have humanity left, who is the true judge of that? We'll never know, im just going off my feelings which are proven to be unreliable xx "calm down and wait through the worst" smart, smart words. The strongest feelings are short lived. Thank you for your insight, it made me think!!x