xanax to ease fear beforehand

[DobryDen]

I can't seem to overcome fear. The times I have been ready to complete the actions to CTB and I couldn't get past the fear of the unknown. (very certain the method will not fail, but fear taking the action and what it will be like to not be alive). Any thoughts on whether taking Xanax will help ease that fear and facilitate follow-through? Ive been on rough plane rides (and I have a history of panic) and the Xanax made me completely unconcerned and peaceful. So in theory, it would work but Im wondering if taking it will make me less motivated bc I'll be, well, basically high/medicated. Thoughts?

 

[Ta555]

I can't seem to overcome fear. The times I have been ready to complete the actions to CTB and I couldn't get past the fear of the unknown. (very certain the method will not fail, but fear taking the action and what it will be like to not be alive). Any thoughts on whether taking Xanax will help ease that fear and facilitate follow-through? Ive been on rough plane rides (and I have a history of panic) and the Xanax made me completely unconcerned and peaceful. So in theory, it would work but Im wondering if taking it will make me less motivated bc I'll be, well, basically high/medicated. Thoughts?

What is your method if I may ask? Xanax may very well help but like you said, you might feel 'good' on it too. I have Klonopin but I've never taken it before and am myself debating whether it will help or hinder. I'd also appreciate any advice.

 

[Elri]

Xanax is great SL killer, my only drug

 

[Insomniac]

So in theory, it would work but Im wondering if taking it will make me less motivated bc I'll be, well, basically high/medicated. Thoughts?

I tried and it's exactly what happened. I combined xanax and wine and ended feeling too good to CTB.

however, I'm thinking on associating xanax with super high dose of caffeine. The combination has made me so restless one day that I wanted to die.

 

[DobryDen]

What is your method if I may ask? Xanax may very well help but like you said, you might feel 'good' on it too. I have Klonopin but I've never taken it before and am myself debating whether it will help or hinder. I'd also appreciate any advice.

I have a .356 handgun and a weighted vest. Will stand in the ocean. Should the bullet not finalize things, the vest will pull me down and the water wil ensure deliverance. So its just those moments of holding the gun and pulling the trigger.

 

[maakies]

Yeah bars make me not want to CTB but the minute I come down I'm all in on CTB

 

[Ta555]

I have a .356 handgun and a weighted vest. Will stand in the ocean. Should the bullet not finalize things, the vest will pull me down and the water wil ensure deliverance. So its just those moments of holding the gun and pulling the trigger.

That would be my ideal method and I'm a little jealous of you

 

[Crazy4u]

you may be scared because of your method. do you also feel scared if you consider other methods?

 

[DobryDen]

you may be scared because of your method. do you also feel scared if you consider other methods?

Good question. Gas Generator carbon monoxide is an option but if it doesn't work, it can be really bad. Might be nausueas. Was goin to rent a van and run the generator in it. Maybe others think thats a good way?

The fear is 1- fear of being dead or of pain at death and 2- fear I won't succeed and will be permanently disabled and have to live even a worse life.

So I figured my way was most likely to have success.

That would be my ideal method and I'm a little jealous of you

My aunt was 88. Active but in so much pain in her spine. Bright. Determined New England Child of the Depression. She figured out how to get lethal dose of pain meds and lay in her tub with water running- so I learned- kill yourselt twice. If the pills didn't work she would drown. I admire her courage so much.