wtf do you do when there's nowhere to go

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i have no one to go to no one evr cared no one ever will. it's too much and i cnat keep doing this im so tired of nightly panic atatcks over my pathebtic lonely life i cant breathe and rhe shaking is makign so exhausting. i trieid whatevevr techniques and they dint help i reached out to otber people and they just sya sorry and change tbe subject i talk in tbe gc and they start tlaking about otbebr stuff i dont have drugsvs lr alcohol and self harm isnt helpung. i dont bave any friendns they all left me at my worst and theg dont care about anyone except tbemsleves they dont care if i die they nevevr cared they know how bard it is for me without them and they left anyways and didnt even let me say how i feel and then strangers aay i can reach out bht they only say it to make themsleves feel better becuause they dont care when i come to them.
thsi hapenes every night and tehrhes never any solution i jsut panic hntil i pass out and its so painful im so fucjing tired. i have absolutely nothing in my life and nothing to go to i jsut need to die i cant handle this

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I know how you feel. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. You sound extremely overwhelmed. I'm sad the only hug I can give is this one

 

[whywere]

1st off you ARE family here to me and I NEED you here, as with no family nor friends and include 24/7 chronic pain, you ARE very important to me.

I have been on my own since March 1974, and after all this time, it is folks like you who make the sky shine with a lovely warming sun.

We are ALL together and you are NEVER EVER alone, as I care deeply about you and want the very best for you.

I may be 70, albeit older, but we ARE good friends and family here, I have zero family nor friends and you are important beyond words.

Also, not to be negative, BUT folks, like your "friends" who take leave and do not help, they WILL get Karma. At my age I have seen it too many times, where someone is a jerk and BANG down the road of life it comes back triple fold and they are always confused as to why it was them.

I have a few times told folks who have said that around me to look in the mirror of life and it will be as plain as day, they were thoughtless, mean etc. and it came back to haunt them.

You are a lovely caring, loving and beautiful spirit.

Hugs my good friend!

Walter

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה, whatever y'all got, the Chr_stians are getting pogrom-level ornery lately, like the actual Martin Luther before his church tried to learn from why G-d left him and Germany all fucked up from all that, although hilariously also at POTUS, so that's funny somehow.