Wow! So literally less than half an hour ago I was testing my set up. The first time I'd tried it. I'd never attempted to make myself pass out before or anything like that. I just set up and thought I'll just give it a try. Tbh I don't think I was convinced I'd get it right. Wow. I'm using both a belt and a rope and I put them round my neck and lowered, a little uncomfortable around the neck pressure wise but absolutely no pain and before I could think of anything else I'd semi passed out I guess you'd say I didn't realise I'd gone. I was still thinking and almost having an internal convo but I'd gone the next thing I know I am aware that I'm struggling and I'm panting or gasping and then almost out of shock I stood up. I'm not sure if that's because it was only supposed to be a test and I stood up out of shock or if that's going to be a problem I need to address. But wow. It was so quick that I went semi conscious. I didn't even realise it had happened at first. My concern now is I've just looked in mirror and there are now like little purple sports all over my face that people will notice. I've hoping they will fade. But I wasn't expecting it so be so fast, painless and easy. Maybe it doesn't remain painless or whatever but wow.
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