Would you want to kill yourself in front of someone?

[QuickandPainless]

Or am I the only morbid asshole who thinks that? If I'm not, who would you do it in front of?

 

[Philip]

I would......in front of almost anyone

 

[Koal]

Sometimes I fantasize about killing myself in front of people who've wronged me. I feel bad for fantasizing about it though because it feels like I'd be just doing it traumatize them. But everyone's anger has to take some form I guess.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

Yeah, but there are too many. I can't get them all in one place at once to see it.

 

[RoadLessTraveled]

eh, I'm not really killing myself because of anyone specific. I'm not gonna lie I fantasize a lot about just pulling a gun and blowing my head off in a public space, but I don't wanna fuck anyone over permanently.

 

[Sick Boy]

I used to fantasize about doing partial in a tree at 3:00am on my street, just to traumatize some of my neighbours
but i realice that i dont want my ctb photo end up in fb

 

[borntodie777]

Or am I the only morbid asshole who thinks that? If I'm not, who would you do it in front of?

It's a nice fantasy but if you didn't do it right those same people may call an ambulance and make sure you survive.

Gun and cyanide are the only two methods that can cause quick enough death for this kinda revenge. It's not like you can do SN or hanging successfully in front of others.

If people didn't care much about you when you were alive, they probably wouldn't care when you die either.

I just want to go and have no revenge fantasy as such

 

[Retched]

Well I'd consider partnering if the situation was right... but I have to admit for a long time I thought about a jump from the local parking garage, just so everyone would know I was dead, assuming it would be public enough to be written about in the paper...

 

[Redt2go]

No :(. Noone deserves that. Ive also never been abused or anything so maybe that's why I think that way. I feel like people who hurt people aren't evil on purpose for the most part

 

[lemmeeleev]

No, I need complete privacy. I don't want others to see me in such a state.

 

[creationisdeath]

Yeah, but there are too many. I can't get them all in one place at once to see it.

This. Specifically my so called parents. But they wouldn't give a shit anyway.

 

[TAW122]

I wouldn't and not mainly because of the fear of traumatizing others, but mostly because I just want to "go" and not leave any chance to failure. Sure, it would be nice if my death is known, but not absolutely necessary as dead is dead. I wouldn't know nor have the capacity to know after death because I wouldn't experience anything beyond that (unless the afterlife is real -- depending on your beliefs).

 

[SiArc]

It is far too personal for me. I do not want a partner, I do not want "revenge" by my death, I want it my way and the only way to ensure that is by doing it alone. It is more than taking my life but ending one path and starting the next.

 

[Lara Francis]

Or am I the only morbid asshole who thinks that? If I'm not, who would you do it in front of?

No.way too risky.!

 

[Smilla]

I used to fantasize about doing partial in a tree at 3:00am on my street, just to traumatize some of my neighbours
but i realice that i dont want my ctb photo end up in fb

Wait. Your neighbors sound like complete dicks—they would actually be insensitive, callous, and morbid enough to post a photo like that?

 

[borntodie777]

Wait. Your neighbors sound like complete dicks—they would actually be insensitive, callous, and morbid enough to post a photo like that?

people will do anything for likes these days

 

[color_me_gone]

Personally, I really wouldn't want to traumatize anyone.

I can understand that some people have been severely hurt by family members or others.
I can understand why they would want to hurt those people and I don't judge them for that.

Fuck, there is already enough hate in the world, I feel no need to add to it.
I actually feel sorry for it.
I came into this world not wanting to hurt anyone, and I will leave the same way.
As long as I can leave peacefully, I'm happy.
I often dream of a magic black button.
I could push it causing me to instantly disappear off the face of the earth without a trace.
I would push that button in an instant. Sadly, that button does not exist.

 

[1964dodge]

Yeah, but there are too many. I can't get them all in one place at once to see it.

easy it may cost money but who cares you won't be around to spend it anyway. set up a big dance free open bar and a door prize of a brand new Cadillac. let them get drunk so they won't know what hit them. call for their attention and tell them how each one wronged you, and say they are going to pay, and worse of all, no car. point the gun at people but resist the urge to shoot then say you did this to me i'd still be alive if you didn't hurt me. then do it. just a thought on how please don't do it even though it's the perfect revenge

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I often dream of a magic black button.
I could push it causing me to instantly disappear off the face of the earth without a trace.
I would push that button in an instant. Sadly, that button does not exist.

Yeah, me too...

 

[RyanSuicide]

I want to die completely alone.... No witnesses

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I would like it for the shock value. Their lives would be ruined forever like mine already is.

Getting the bloody brains of a man who blew himself away just mere feet from where you sat would traumatize 90 some percent of people to the point of no return. Oh, they'd keep living. But in constant mental torment like I have now. I'd simply be passing it on like a beach ball.

 

[511115]

I want to die completely alone.... No witnesses

Same here. I'm killing myself in the hotel bathroom, and I'm going to put a sign on the bathroom door so hotel staff doesn't have to see my corpse, and cops will be prepared to find a (hopefully) cold, dead body.

 

[RyanSuicide]

Same here. I'm killing myself in the hotel bathroom, and I'm going to put a sign on the bathroom door so hotel staff doesn't have to see my corpse, and cops will be prepared to find a (hopefully) cold, dead body.

Which method?

 

[Dor]

Or am I the only morbid asshole who thinks that? If I'm not, who would you do it in front of?

Kind of have an urge to livestream it on some gore site for some bizarre reason, I'm not typically a shower. Doubt I'll do it though, just another hassle. If you mean would I do it in front of someone to traumatize them, then no.

I guess on further thought the urge is one last grasp of attention seeking, I'm really a giant attentionwhore.

 

[511115]

Which method?

I've been hesitant to put it forward on this forum. In a way, I've been perfecting it for years. I know exactly what I'm doing and am prepared for exactly what happens once I begin the process.

If someone who doesn't know what they're doing tries this, it won't work. I don't want to put an idea out there that will give false hope and put someone in a hospital for a failed attempt.

 

[Kyrok]

I'm thinking the president of my corporation... or some political fucker. Probably this is how I'll ctb.

 

[Chinaski]

or some political fucker. Probably this is how I'll ctb.

Didn't quite work for Sirhan Sirhan. Any type of political fucker? As in, like, the President? Or would the branch treasurer of a small trade union do?

 

[Kyrok]

Didn't quite work for Sirhan Sirhan. Any type of political fucker? As in, like, the President? Or would the branch treasurer of a small trade union do?

Well, Sirhan Sirhan killed RFK, different scenario.

I'd certainly like someone to take Trump out, but figure Melania has dibs.

I'm thinking the venue and issue will matter more than the specific politician. Maybe my state's AG, however. He's caused incredible harm to people who matter to me.

 

[Misanthrope]

I have fantasies of doing so as one last ditch attempt at activism. A lot of activism is founded on corpses that made a difference. So it is an appealing fantasy to go out that way but an unrealistic one.

I would like to violently kill myself in front of the secretary of work and pensions. Preferably as she is live in front of the press explaining how her policies are not killing people and that is absolute unfounded nonsense with no evidence. I would go there wearing a sign saying 'This is not a corpse this is only scaremongering.' With a link to Calum's list beneath rendered in bold crimson. If I can hit her with arterial spray all the better. I can imagine them asking the secretary if that is a corpse and blood on her hands? Then her not answering the question and instead referencing the amount of disabled people that have been 'helped' into working. All as my body cools in a pool of blood in front of the podium...

In reality though no. I will be making every effort to not leave awful images burned in the brain. I have seen corpses in various states and it fucks you up. It is what prompted me to write on that issue in the first place appealing to consideration.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/corpse-exposure-consideration.7772/

Sigh, back to impotent misery I guess...

 

[Smilla]

A well-known NYC gay rights attorney and later environmental rights activist immolated himself in a public park in NY last summer on a sunny afternoon. His remains left a burnt mark on the ground in the shape of his body.

He received one article in the NYTimes, and radio silence since.

Recommend against trying to make a statement with suicide—people forget quickly, while branding you insane.