I almost did. March 26th, 2024. My mom owns guns from her time on the police force, she keeps them in locked cases and I knew where they were so I just went and got the case, shimmied my hand into it and pulled it out. As I was holding it, I did a lot of things. Pointed it at a wall, pointed it at my chest, but never at my head. Part of me knew that If I did I would pull the trigger whether it was loaded or not. I decided against it when I really took a look at the gun, my mom had drawn little hearts all over it in silver sharpie. I put it back and never spoke about it to anyone. Since then she's removed the guns from the house, or at least hidden them where I won't find them, but now that I look back at it... I wish I would've pulled that trigger.