Would you try CTB if you were rich ?

[zappynomore]

they say money doesn't buy happiness but I think it does to a large degree. Like if you could travel anywhere in the world had a bog house garden etc etc you are more likely to be happy and content with life than the struggle and stress of not having money.

But all that said look at famous and rich people who are depressed and suicidal and kill themselves its not rainbows and kittens being rich.

But I think odds wise you are far more likely to be happy if you have money.

 

[derekWest]

$5,000,000? I don't think I could pay rent for an apartment with such a little amount. Remember, only the top 100 people can afford to buy things now. Also, I would never win money anyway so it would have to be a parallel universe for that to happen.

i don't understand your thinking

 

[Forever Sleep]

For the short-term it would save me. My main issues with life are money related. Long-term though, I'm not sure. I still don't like the thought of old age/ illness.

 

[NekoRightsActivist]

Absolutely not, to be honest; the difference between having to work in a dreadful job 40 hours a week, and being able to NEET without worries, is night and day.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

It's a difficult question to answer for me.
I think there was a time, like when I still had excellent health, that I would say that yes, money would have solved 99% of my problems.

Now that I am older and have a few health issues (that could have been easily avoided if I had money actually), I think I would still want to die. Because my health issues are unfixable (or for some of them the "fixes" that are offered nowadays are unacceptable to me) and even if they were or if I were to try, what is the point, would I stay alive just to go from doctor to doctor, from procedure to procedures, yikes? I hate doctors, hate all that stuff. I just want snap my fingers and get my health back in an instance without any of that lol. So I need magic, not money lol.

And then there's the question of meaning. Being rich would help me occupy my life with all the activities I haven't been able to do because I never had any money, like living alone, buying a shit ton of musical instruments, traveling, etc. But even if I do everything on my bucket list and beyond, life is still going to be meaningless. I find it difficult to live without meaning. Money would certainly help with being less miserable, but I'll still be empty inside. Heck, maybe being rich will make me want to ctb even more, because then I'd definitely be able to get my hands on some N, I could bribe anyone for it XD

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I'm saying no now, but that's because I've always had money issues and now in particular things are really bad. Winning that kind of money would certainly come in handy and maybe buy some time, definitely help in the short term and hopefully help in making the impossible happen. But I cannot say it will be the ultimate solution because money was not the cause of me becoming suicidal. At the very least, it will help to make me breathe a bit and allow me to get out of the current bad place of not having an income and running out of money.

 

[GlassMoon]

that would make me want to CTB more. the money I leave behind could change my loved ones' lives

May I ask: Couldn't you just gift some of it to them?

 

[dead dav]

I would still want to die but could afford a hit man to take me out

 

[theolivanderroach]

What's the point of riches if there's nothing worth spending it on?

 

[archiveofpain]

Yes, regardless of being rich or not it doesn't change the fact that life is unappealing to me

 

[angelz08]

yes. i think life would largely remain tedious and mundane for me

 

[dead dav]

Once I have paid for the hit man give the rest to charity in my will

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

It depends. That probably still wouldn't be enough money to fight what I have to fight. But it'd be enough to try probably, yeah.

 

[bananaolympus]

Yes money is not an issue for me and plenty of famous with millions in networth have killed themselves

 

[Coin]

I would still want to not exist and would actually feel more suicidal (or at least feel my suicide is more justified) as I can leave my few friends and family with a gift to let them know I had no ill intention towards them.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Money can't undo the unspeakable mental pain I've already felt so Id still want to CTB. With 5 million I could get N pretty easily.

 

[SomePeacePlease]

Studies show that people that win huge amounts of money have a massive spike of dopamine the first weeks/months after they win, and then it's normalised back to more or less how it was.

Money would be great, and it would to be honest, in my case make it easier to CTB. I could secure my sons future, I could pay off debt for my family, and pay for my own funeral.

My brain chemistry wouldn't change, my benzo use for anxiety wouldn't change, my opioid use, caused by back pain from 20 failed Electroshock treatments, wouldn't go away. I just want peace and silence. My favorite part about the ECT treatments was the split seconds before the anesthesia set in, thinking "Imagine not waking up again", with a warm feeling.

 

[ghostxheart]

Ultimately the money wouldn't really change that I'm just tired of pretending I want to keep living in a world like this, so yes.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

maybe for a week, i'd be less suicidal
but
it always comes back

 

[Life'sA6itch]

No, because I would have the constant stress due to lack of money alleviated and could focus on doing things I actually want to do and help others.

I'm saying no now, but that's because I've always had money issues and now in particular things are really bad. Winning that kind of money would certainly come in handy and maybe buy some time, definitely help in the short term and hopefully help in making the impossible happen. But I cannot say it will be the ultimate solution because money was not the cause of me becoming suicidal. At the very least, it will help to make me breathe a bit and allow me to get out of the current bad place of not having an income and running out of money.

Breathing room is important. The stress from lack of money can be all encompassing. It would be so nice to not have that stress.

 

[grapevoid]

A lot of money could possibly prolong my time frame in the sense that I could do something cool with the people I love before I go but it would only be a bandaid for a short time. I'm pretty stable financially and I still really have no desire to live.

 

[UglyLife82]

No I wouldn't. Most of the reason I want to ctb stem from poverty, going back and forth between homelessness, no freedom, no choice. I would still be insecure, depressed and suffer from OCD if I was rich, but my life wouldn't be to where I felt like it wasn't worth living, the way I do now.

 

[infidelity37]

A TON of my problems are financial related, so probably not

 

[hereornot]

It would make me capable of dealing with my problems and moving away forever from people who harm me.

 

[pathetic failure]

Yes, I don't think any amount of money can turn me into a decent lovable human

 

[_Maya]

Even though money would fund my hobbies and distract me, it wouldn't fix my problems.

 

[Darkover]

yes i would use the money to kill my self without a doubt they can't fix brain injury's

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I have a relatively good life, my main issues are loneliness and a sad brain. If I got that amount of money, I'd try to improve my brain and give my boyfriend and I a comfortable and fulfilling life.

I'm sure I'd also return to my philanthropic ways - I'd feel a moral push to help the world. I think I'd want to make an animal sanctuary or create a charity to help people. I'd be able to pay volunteers and make sure they'd have access to emotional support to avoid being traumatized like I was in the past.

I may ctb in the end, if none of this brought me happiness. At that point it would be safe to say the problem was me.