ddn.ctb

ddn.ctb

Waiting to step off in front of an audience
Sep 9, 2023
236
I am not sure I would. There is something in me that says I have reached my expiry date.
 
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Aim

Aim

🤍
Sep 12, 2023
945
I had and still have good friends. So no. I am still wanting and preparing to do it. There is nothing i feel like that can take away the pain of (speaking for myself) depression. Not money, not people, nothing i feels like at this point!
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,363
I don't have any interest in that, nothing could ever make me wish to suffer in this futile and torturous process of decaying from age, I only wish for the peace of eternal nothingness.
 
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ddn.ctb

ddn.ctb

Waiting to step off in front of an audience
Sep 9, 2023
236
I had and still have good friends. So no. I am still wanting and preparing to do it. There is nothing i feel like that can take away the pain of (speaking for myself) depression. Not money, not people, nothing i feels like at this point!
I feel the same - I have good friends but CTB seems to what I need to do
 
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リンさん

リンさん

Rina • she/her, lesbian
Sep 9, 2023
323
Change "friend" to a "girlfriend" and I'm set lol.

It's the only thing that can change my mind, honestly. I'd be totally down to grow somewhat old in this shitty world if only I had someone reliable and loving by my side at all times. I think I could endure it all then.

Ideally though, we would CTB together. It's my ultimate pipe dream. Imagine being together with someone who also doesn't see life as worth living without you, so they choose not to. I do think it's kind of creepy and idealistic at best though. I used to date a girl that was dependent on me and I still haven't shaken that utter dread of seeing someone make their entire personality revolve around you. Ugh. I never want to experience this kind of "love" again.
 
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RichardFirst

RichardFirst

Specialist
Jan 16, 2021
383
Not a chance.
 
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movinout17

movinout17

Student
Feb 2, 2023
113
I had and still have good friends. So no. I am still wanting and preparing to do it. There is nothing i feel like that can take away the pain of (speaking for myself) depression. Not money, not people, nothing i feels like at this point!
I hope I'm not unwelcome if I ask, have you tried alternative depression treatments? Like tms or ketamine? I'm doing spravato, which is a ketamine treatment, and it actually seems to be helping my clinical depression. I have energy and appetite, and life somehow seems less miserable

I'm still planning to CTB though, but I was wondering if it might help you. I don't have any good friends, I always had trouble being social, part of my reason being suicidal
 
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ddn.ctb

ddn.ctb

Waiting to step off in front of an audience
Sep 9, 2023
236
Change "friend" to a "girlfriend" and I'm set lol.

It's the only thing that can change my mind, honestly. I'd be totally down to grow somewhat old in this shitty world if only I had someone reliable and loving by my side at all times. I think I could endure it all then.

Ideally though, we would CTB together. It's my ultimate pipe dream. Imagine being together with someone who also doesn't see life as worth living without you, so they choose not to. I do think it's kind of creepy and idealistic at best though. I used to date a girl that was dependent on me and I still haven't shaken that utter dread of seeing someone make their entire personality revolve around you. Ugh. I never want to experience this kind of "love" again.
You are a romantic. !!!
 
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Amyend88

Amyend88

A&E
Oct 22, 2023
167
Nope. There's the short and sweet answer. 😊
 
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movinout17

movinout17

Student
Feb 2, 2023
113
The way the question is, my answer is no. But would a good friend hold off my CTB? Possibly.
 
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Aim

Aim

🤍
Sep 12, 2023
945
I hope I'm not unwelcome if I ask, have you tried alternative depression treatments? Like tms or ketamine? I'm doing spravato, which is a ketamine treatment, and it actually seems to be helping my clinical depression. I have energy and appetite, and life somehow seems less miserable

I'm still planning to CTB though, but I was wondering if it might help you. I don't have any good friends, I always had trouble being social, part of my reason being suici
No no off course not! :) Omg that is so good to hear! Even if your suicidal. Taking something that can make your days at least a litle better and brighter Is totally worth it! Makes me very happy to hear! <3 good for you!<3 I think i have tried everything except ketamine actually. And i have been thinking about trying it. But i am also diagnosed with bpd. Which i know alot off people fiend a good way to live with. But for me its like the mental and emotinal agony/pain seem to always be there. So i have kinda come to a conclustion. And is now accepting of my decison. But thank you very much for your tip <3 I would def. try it if i didnt feel this lost alleredy.
 
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DyingToDie123

DyingToDie123

she/her
Oct 25, 2023
385
One, no. A few, maybe. To undo the mistakes of past friendships, very well maybe.
 
steppenwolf

steppenwolf

Not a student
Oct 25, 2023
161
You don't want to bother with friends. Friends are no good to you. Or girlfriends.
 
onetimereject

onetimereject

Living the life of a problem
Jun 18, 2023
24
Got a good friend already, doesn't quite work. Maybe change it into a million dollars. Then we'll see.
 
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maidens

maidens

" more dead than alive, I endure it "
Aug 27, 2023
143
I have a lot of good friends, but all of them are online. maybe if I could have an irl friend that loves and cares about me that I could see often, I would consider changing my mind
 
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hi-okbye

hi-okbye

7.7.2023<3
May 5, 2023
656
i have a really close good friend. it breaks my heart that i have to do this to her but it doesn't change that i want to do it. the only thing that would stop me was if i could raise people from the dead. and frankly, i don't think that's happening
 
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udusa

udusa

Will ctb before december
Jun 1, 2023
37
If it wasn't for good friends, I would have definitely ctb'd around a year ago.
They were the only thing keeping me from doing it. Right now? I'm not sure if they can anymore.
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,195
regarding title: O^o. no.
 
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inpursuitofpeace

Member
Jan 4, 2023
52
No. I think having a good friend can make the good times more bearable and help a little bit with the bad times, but overall, life is just too painful and I wouldn't want to put that pressure on a friend to try to keep me alive. At the end of the day, a good friend can help, but they can't fix all of the problems that exist, and life is just too painful to endure. Friends are good, but I still want to CTB
 
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jinx <3

jinx <3

💮she/her🏳️‍⚧️
Apr 12, 2023
85
I love my friends but I still want to die often. Sometimes even when I'm with them. It really sucks because again, I love them, and I wish I could just stay here with them and be reasonably happy for it. But pain usually wins over in the end sadly (I do talk with them about stuff, but emotional support can only take you so far when your brain chemistry's fucked).
 
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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
588
Damn.....if they were willing to accept all of my broken and twisted parts....and loved me unconditionally

Yeah I think if I could I would and I would try in a heart beat.

Though only for a friend not for a lover....I've recently come to realize I'm aromantic....I cant come to love anyone romantically.

But I think if someone came to me and told me they liked me and wanted to br my friend and they were okay with all of my issues....even though I suck at communicating with others and personally hate it... I would like to think I would try to change
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
722
No. I don't want to stay here. I'll see them in the next life, if there is one.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,942
I had a good friend. It hurts when you lose touch and you each have separate lives. I don't really trust friendship now.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,031
I am not sure I would. There is something in me that says I have reached my expiry date.
God id hate to be that friend. I don't know what they did to deserve the misfortune of that fate. Look im a miserable human being having a friend helps but doesn't ultimately change that fact. If I had a future (back) or a pathway in life then I'd have no reason to CTB and wouldn't want to. Unfortunately that was stolen from me. It also doesn't seem like from the evidence anyone cares to help.

Salient point being CTB in that scenario is probably the most altruistic thing I can do. Let them find someone who can actually be a proper friend to them rather then whatever I can as a shell of myself and a human being...
 
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Deleted member 65988

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I had a good friend. It hurts when you lose touch and you each have separate lives. I don't really trust friendship now.
Second this, I lost the best friendship I could have ever had to time, not a falling out or anything else like that but now, I'm alone even if I don't mind it as I see it as the ideal time to ctb.
 
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cursedcure

cursedcure

palliative care
Oct 8, 2023
76
unfortunately it's a no for me, i am fortunate to have had the most amazing, understanding, trustworthy friends for the past decade or so (even changing friends over the years, i have been so blessed). my friends have carried me this far, and i am so, so sorry that i have to make them feel this pain, but it's time for me go. i've endured enough, i'm thankful for all the good times and memories i have had with my friends. but they can't save me, no one can, and i just want to go now.
 
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ThisIsLife

ThisIsLife

Specialist
Feb 3, 2023
371
The best friend i could have is a friend that'd understand me as much as a twin would, and if that was the case me and this person would CTB together; therefore it wouldn't change anything but not dying alone, which doesn't matter to me.
 
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fallintotheshadows

fallintotheshadows

Member
Oct 23, 2023
59
The whole problem is that my only attraction is in a friend way due to my personality. I wanted love but see it as unobtainable due to my other faults so I will definitely not trade my cbt for a friend. If friends were enough of a reason to keep me going I wouldn't be in this state
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Change "friend" to a "girlfriend" and I'm set lol.

It's the only thing that can change my mind, honestly. I'd be totally down to grow somewhat old in this shitty world if only I had someone reliable and loving by my side at all times. I think I could endure it all then.

Ideally though, we would CTB together. It's my ultimate pipe dream. Imagine being together with someone who also doesn't see life as worth living without you, so they choose not to. I do think it's kind of creepy and idealistic at best though. I used to date a girl that was dependent on me and I still haven't shaken that utter dread of seeing someone make their entire personality revolve around you. Ugh. I never want to experience this kind of "love" again.
The movie that this reminds me of heavily is Romeo and juliet. Realistically people claim that their reasons were dumb but when you think about it they really aren't. If you loved someone that much thought that they were the one that much and then they died on you what more would you have to live for? That lover was the only one you thought was perfect for you In this world so killing yourself together is poetic yes
 
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deadbody

deadbody

he/him 🏳️‍⚧️
Oct 24, 2023
117
No, I don't want to bother another human being with all my problems. Building friendships is difficult and I am not able to do it.
 
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princexhhn

princexhhn

call me prince
Sep 26, 2023
109
no way, the only way a friend can stop me is if they physically prevent me from attempting haha. and besides, ive already got a good friend. my ctb plans were held off partially also because of her. i dont think itll stop me but its contributing to let the deadline extend. i think a partner would have better chances at stopping me, but so far all my lovers turned out disappointments in the end^-^
 
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