
I’vehadenough
Elementalist
- Sep 15, 2018
- 847
Yes, I'd still want to ctb
Money can't buy what I lost
Money can't buy what I lost
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I have enough money I need but deafening roaring hammering tinnitus both ears driving me insane making me so ill so tortured literally money cant buy your health ive tried theres not much money cant fix wish it couldI would maybe last a few more years. No amount of money in the world is going to fix my mental issues. I'll carry them with me wherever I go, rich or poor.
All i would do is pay someone to put me to sleep permanently n painlessly . . My illness is incurable regardless so money can't change that .Money would bide me time for the inevitable. It solves a lot of my problems. I would be inclined to stick around longer for sure. I could at least live until my mom passes because not hurting her is the only reason I'm alive today. With money I could get a safe place to live alone, I could afford healthcare to try and help my physical issues, never have to work again, afford good food, games and hobbies as a distraction, buy my mom nice things. I could say fuck you to my ex and rub it in his face because he deserves that.
But money won't bring back what I lost. I'll still be me, I'll still be broken and deep down I know ctb is my inevitable end.
Same.Useless.
I am incurable. The money was not the factor that will drive me to suicide but my health.