But I accept your apology...
Just 18??
When I was 18 we had rock n roll, Elvis, Buddy Holly, the Beatles, Swinging London/UK, great fashions, LSD, a few smokes, and so on.
I would never have wanted to tap myself with all that going on. So WTF is going on with youth culture today??
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not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
If an AI neural-net were programmed to learn to write like me, it would produce this.
Sorry about your shitbags, kid.
Yes.
If money was the solution (no matter what amount) I would have never been suicidal in the first place. I would have worked my ass off to get there without any excuses. I would never use suicide as a solution to a temporary problem.
If money was the solution (no matter what amount) I would have never been suicidal in the first place. I would have worked my ass off to get there without any excuses. I would never use suicide as a solution to a temporary problem.
Egddios
Specialist
- Oct 27, 2018
- 395
Theon
Experienced
- Jun 20, 2019
- 241
ToodleyDoKangaroo
Member
- Jul 14, 2019
- 17
I'm not sure. I do think with more money, you can deal with more of your problems (debt, living expenses, and such). Also, I wouldn't be limited by health insurance, so I'd have the best access to all forms of treatment. But there's a possibility that even that wouldn't work. I guess it would depend on if something worked or if I could hold out long enough to wait for something to work. It took over a year to find something that maybe sorta kinda works sometimes and, even with the accessibility of resources, I might still become emotionally exhausted by the process.
If I woke up with a million bucks, I would leave everything here and move to the Netherlands and try to start over. After 5 years, I could apply to be a citizen. And apply for euthanasia of my problems were still the same.
Saga
In my memories a smiling me doesn't exist
- Jul 20, 2019
- 175
I might stay a little longer and go to animal shelters to care for them and bring them all home with my...that would be my heaven in this hell...
Etherealdignity333
Ad Astra
- Jul 21, 2019
- 172
I don't know.
Probably not as aggressively.
I think I'd just buy a remote house somewhere, tell the world to fuck off, and climb mountains until I eventually succumbed on one.
Probably not as aggressively.
I think I'd just buy a remote house somewhere, tell the world to fuck off, and climb mountains until I eventually succumbed on one.
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It would give me the opportunity to have a couple of new experiences. It would dress up the situation on the surface. But it wouldn't change how I feel at the core of me. More options, still, the same feelings.
Seven
Rebirth
- Jul 9, 2019
- 32
Yeah id probably buy a ton of hookers,make games and art then die in a blaze of fire. The way i always wanted to go
komm susser todd
Become the master of your own fate
- Jul 21, 2019
- 78
The cliche that money cant buy happiness is from what i gather not a cliche but simple truth.
Money can make things easier for sure, but it doesnt buy deep meaningful relationships, and the problem with humans is they are a social animal and as such is neccessary for a fulfilling life. You dont know who your friends are unless your poor.
That being said if i was a billionaire, im keeping a few to get an easy ctb method in this case likely a big caliber handgun and donating everything else. Fuck money
Money can make things easier for sure, but it doesnt buy deep meaningful relationships, and the problem with humans is they are a social animal and as such is neccessary for a fulfilling life. You dont know who your friends are unless your poor.
That being said if i was a billionaire, im keeping a few to get an easy ctb method in this case likely a big caliber handgun and donating everything else. Fuck money
A shotgun is more powerful than any handgun and can be had for a very affordable $230. A 12-gauge is .73 caliber, making .50 caliber handguns look so cute & little by comparison. Like them adorable little Desert Eagles.
I've often said that having money only means that you can blow your brains out with a really nice gun. The poor have no chance of going out with a custom made 1911 pistol that costs $5,000. Not a problem though since a cheap shotgun is still superior.
Never ever, problems solved. No more work and dealing with being put down all the time, no worrying about mortgage and bills. My parents could help if they would have me back but they won't. Although they are lovely in other ways they think I will stress them out because of the way I behave but the way I behave is due to worrying. They won't listen. They just think mental health services will help me but they know mental health services do not do anything for me. I have tried to get help for decades now. All I have got is tablets which do not work.
Kassender
Experienced
- Aug 29, 2018
- 251
Im pretty sure i wouldnt be anymore, for a little while.
Id bring some novelty into my life, new house, maybe a cabin into the moutains
Travel a little, experience stuff.
When going home id get animals to care for.
Itd be awesome, but just a matter of weeks, months at best, before emptiness and loneliness creep their way inside again.
Then id only waste away into a bigger house. Like im doing now.
But id really like that.
Id bring some novelty into my life, new house, maybe a cabin into the moutains
Travel a little, experience stuff.
When going home id get animals to care for.
Itd be awesome, but just a matter of weeks, months at best, before emptiness and loneliness creep their way inside again.
Then id only waste away into a bigger house. Like im doing now.
But id really like that.
Dawn0071111
Hungry Ghost
- Dec 9, 2018
- 570
Ixtabba
I’ve got a war in my mind.
- Jul 25, 2019
- 29
Yes. This world is too full of evil to enjoy things like money, because people will be fake when they hear you're a billionaire, you'd have to hide it to be treated normally most of the time. That's hell.
Pistolero114
Veteran
- Jun 25, 2019
- 261
Probably. Because I was taught that with great wealth comes great responsibility. And not wanting to be responsible for anything or anyone anymore is my primary reason for CTB.
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,546
It probably would not change much for me. Maybe it might buy me a little more time. I don't know.
All the money in the world still can't regenerate lost body parts. I suppose I'd have access to fancier plastic surgery to try to pretty things up, but the damage is done and nothing can ever change that. I'd still have scars. I'd still have nerve damage. I'd still be missing pieces of myself, and I'd still be haunted by memories of my old self.
Plus, there's the whole issue of not being in control of my suicidal ideation or depression to begin with. It's not like I'm choosing to suffer this way.
All the money in the world still can't regenerate lost body parts. I suppose I'd have access to fancier plastic surgery to try to pretty things up, but the damage is done and nothing can ever change that. I'd still have scars. I'd still have nerve damage. I'd still be missing pieces of myself, and I'd still be haunted by memories of my old self.
Plus, there's the whole issue of not being in control of my suicidal ideation or depression to begin with. It's not like I'm choosing to suffer this way.
ThriveOrDie
We are already in hell
- Jul 11, 2019
- 449
Probably not. Money can't buy happiness. I would still be alone but I would be able to get treatment for my many health problems. I've been sick for 15 years and just need the suffering to end. Whether that means I get help to live or die doesn't matter to me.
Reaper44
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- Jul 20, 2019
- 31
I would CTB faster if I had that kind of money. I would be able to travel to my favorite place and end my life there. The money itself wouldn't be able to stop me, since no amount of money can reverse time and make things better again.
angie
need to exit
- May 25, 2018
- 480
If i won loads of money id be happy with just 10k of it to get me to dignitas a.s.a.p .
i cant afford to go it so i would be estatic to win enough to get me there .
All the rest id give some away to family and most of it charities.
i cant afford to go it so i would be estatic to win enough to get me there .
All the rest id give some away to family and most of it charities.
I've never really handled money so I'm not sure what I would even do with it
Most of the stuff I come close to enjoying is either low cost or free
Maybe I'd get somewhere to live in the middle of nowhere and hide wads of cash in obscure areas
I can't say what kind of psychological impact it would have, but if I had to guess, I'd say I probably still would be. My problems are more internal than external.
Most of the stuff I come close to enjoying is either low cost or free
Maybe I'd get somewhere to live in the middle of nowhere and hide wads of cash in obscure areas
I can't say what kind of psychological impact it would have, but if I had to guess, I'd say I probably still would be. My problems are more internal than external.
