Help Would my method work? (trazodone, lithium)

[kirillbledny]

I want to ctb with 19.2g of trazodone, 33.9g lithium, 15mg alprazolam and possibly wash it down with alcohol. When I was 15yo, I OD'd on 7 pills of alprazolam and 7 pills of trazodone and ended up in the ICU for about 2 days after waking up dizzy, passing out in the shower then passing out again, throwing up and pissing myself in the kitchen. So my assumption was if I take hundreds more, it'd surely do something. However, after reading up on it and finding some case studies, it seems like a very lengthy and uncertain process. A lot of the people who died of a lithium OD died after 2-5 days. I live with my family, my mother knows I'm actively suicidal, so everyone's on high alert unfortunately (to the point of getting worried phone calls after being at my father's for 16hrs). SN is readily available in my country, getting a proper AE however seems impossible, as the only OTC ones are for motion sickness.

I did some maths based on what I read and it seems like the lethal levels of lithium are 2.5-3.5 mEq/l, mine would be anywhere between 11.4-13.3 mEq/l. Seems pretty promising.

I just wanted to hear your guys' thoughts or experiences if you've ever tried any of these drugs. The trazodone is 3yrs past its expiration date, but I don't know how much of a difference that makes in my use case.

 

[Forveleth]

Welcome to SaSu. Sorry life has brought you to this point.

Medication ODs are very, very unpredictable. Even running the numbers, most people do not die from them as intended, but rather end up very sick and living. Unfortunately, this is not a recommended method.

 

[kirillbledny]

Welcome to SaSu. Sorry life has brought you to this point.

Medication ODs are very, very unpredictable. Even running the numbers, most people do not die from them as intended, but rather end up very sick and living. Unfortunately, this is not a recommended method.

Very unfortunate. I wonder if combining it with hanging would be a guarantee? I never really seriously considered it because I always thought it was just agony for minutes on end, but after looking into it more it seems like you pass out almost immediately if done right.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I want to ctb with 19.2g of trazodone, 33.9g lithium, 15mg alprazolam and possibly wash it down with alcohol. When I was 15yo, I OD'd on 7 pills of alprazolam and 7 pills of trazodone and ended up in the ICU for about 2 days after waking up dizzy, passing out in the shower then passing out again, throwing up and pissing myself in the kitchen. So my assumption was if I take hundreds more, it'd surely do something. However, after reading up on it and finding some case studies, it seems like a very lengthy and uncertain process. A lot of the people who died of a lithium OD died after 2-5 days. I live with my family, my mother knows I'm actively suicidal, so everyone's on high alert unfortunately (to the point of getting worried phone calls after being at my father's for 16hrs). SN is readily available in my country, getting a proper AE however seems impossible, as the only OTC ones are for motion sickness.

I did some maths based on what I read and it seems like the lethal levels of lithium are 2.5-3.5 mEq/l, mine would be anywhere between 11.4-13.3 mEq/l. Seems pretty promising.

I just wanted to hear your guys' thoughts or experiences if you've ever tried any of these drugs. The trazodone is 3yrs past its expiration date, but I don't know how much of a difference that makes in my use case.

I have tried to CTB with OD many times..
ODs never work..
Soo.. don't rely on it

 

[kirillbledny]

I have tried to CTB with OD many times..
ODs never work..
Soo.. don't rely on it

Thanks, I tried it a few times before but I was a minor then so less freedom and money for other means. I guess I tend to lean towards it because it's familiar and doesn't really trigger SI in me.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Thanks, I tried it a few times before but I was a minor then so less freedom and money for other means. I guess I tend to lean towards it because it's familiar and doesn't really trigger SI in me.

Ikr, it's very easy to do. I myself have tried all variations of OD that was possible for me.. OD on paracetamol, OD on benzodiazepine, OD on benzo+ alcohol. Nothing worked. And OD with paracetamol was the worst and most uncomfortable OD.

 

[kirillbledny]

Ikr, it's very easy to do. I myself have tried all variations of OD that was possible for me.. OD on paracetamol, OD on benzodiazepine, OD on benzo+ alcohol. Nothing worked. And OD with paracetamol was the worst and most uncomfortable OD.

It's very strange all the warnings you see online about how dangerous/fatal mixing benzos with alcohol is, I did it many times just recreationally and it just puts me to sleep after half an hour. I feel like you'd have to do an insane amount for it to be actually dangerous. I read some statistic about how ODs are only fatal in 5 % of cases. It sucks. I wish I was in the US and get fentanyl.

 

[ctb_warrior]

It's very strange all the warnings you see online about how dangerous/fatal mixing benzos with alcohol is, I did it many times just recreationally and it just puts me to sleep after half an hour. I feel like you'd have to do an insane amount for it to be actually dangerous. I read some statistic about how ODs are only fatal in 5 % of cases. It sucks. I wish I was in the US and get fentanyl.

I too believed the internet it says that alcohol and benzos are lethal and can lead to coma or even death.
I used 40 strips of ativan to CTB in 2011. I thought I'll never wake up.
I woke up the next day. And i came back to my senses after a week. When i was out of my senses, i could still open my phone lock which is very complex that no one can open easily
I wish I could just bribe a corrupt money hungry vet with loads of money and take sufficient N from them so i could go to sleep peacefully and never wake up

 

[kirillbledny]

I too believed the internet it says that alcohol and benzos are lethal and can lead to coma or even death.
I used 40 strips of ativan to CTB in 2011. I thought I'll never wake up.
I woke up the next day. And i came back to my senses after a week. When i was out of my senses, i could still open my phone lock which is very complex that no one can open easily
I wish I could just bribe a corrupt money hungry vet with loads of money and take sufficient N from them so i could go to sleep peacefully and never wake up

That's so real, I always fantasize about hiring a hitman on myself lmao

 

[ctb_warrior]

That's so real, I always fantasize about hiring a hitman on myself lmao

I have heard that's actually possible using dark web