Discussion Would like some opinions

[Dizzylady80]

I'm wondering what y'all would do in my shoes? Mind you if someone says "yeah I'd kill myself" I'm not going to read that and say oh that settles it, but I think some honest feedback could give me some insight, some things to think about. I'm not gonna give backstory, just the situation at hand. Also, the procedure hasn't been done yet, that's scheduled for the 5th (its got about a 50% success rate but my pain has been resistant to so, so mant treatments so who fucking knows). So here it is

26 years old. You're a cheery person who has great friends, loves life, loves the world, in a very real way. But. You've had this shit 10ish years, after dozens and dozens of failed treatments. Pain is usually comparable to passing a kidney stone or being burned by a piece of metal, but all the time and in an area that takes up about 1/3 of your back. Can barely walk, barely get dressed, barely sleep, barely do anything because the sensitivity is so high and everything makes it worse. You have this procedure, the last effective treatment available to you, and it doesn't work. There's other options, stuff like botox and hypnotherapy, but they have very low success rates. There is also an unknown but very real chance it could just go away on it's own. What do you do? Do you wait it out, or no?

 

[Marine]

I'm going to list things I would do with the limited knowledge I have of your situation :

Consult a competent homeopath with good knowledge of the Organon.

Try to remember when the pain started, if you can associate it with a change of any sort, if you had even minor health issues before.

Try hypnotherapy too and anything you feel might help.

Find everything that can alleviate the pain, preferably natural stuff, take it as easy and slow as necessary while being caring and compassionate with yourself, enlist all the help and support you can to make it as manageable as possible, soothe it with music, attempt a fruit and veggie cure, juice or water fasting, soft compresses, clay cataplasms... Sit in a place where ou can contemplate nature, even just the sky on a balcony for instance, in peace.

I hope at least one of those things can help you. Seeing a good naturopath is my n°1 recommendation. They're much more competent and resourceful when it comes to chronic and unidentified pain with their holistic approach. Don't believe the propaganda meant to discredit them. These are harmful lies. Now since it's a delicate art finding a good one may not be easy. I'm currently looking for one myself in my area.

 

[NG_Kasumi]

Does strong pain killers helps? I feel like you should wait it out.

 

[Dizzylady80]

Does strong pain killers helps? I feel like you should wait it out.

No they don't

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like only you can decide what is best as only you are the one who is in your situation after all. That does sound really horrible what you have to endure, and it is awful how our bodies are capable of torturing us so much. I can imagine that it must be really exhausting and unbearable what you are going through. It is such a cruel and unfair life. I hope that you find relief from your pain in whatever option you choose.

 

[Atlantian]

yeah I'd kill myself

You basically outlined all the reasons to argue for going with suicide. Really, the only reason to continue living would be for the small chance it goes away on its own. Your decision rests solely on that. Otherwise, accept a life of pain, I guess.

 

[CursedSoul]

hiya dizzy when they sent me to crazy land aka psycho ward, for my second time (2 out of 6 total) i met someone that was heavely suicidal like you and me, and had your exact same problem, he took heroine, morphine, etc.. all strong med, the highest stuff you could take, nothing would stop his physical pain, and sometimes he could barely walk. He told me something when i asked him "how can you live like that for so long ?" as he had it since he was a kid, he told me that when he found love, it made his pain not lower, not forgotten, nor disapear, but it made it "bearable" or worth it if you get my meaning, basically, finding a reason top accept it, i mean i really hate saying that to you, as myself, i don't have any horrendous physical pain, and i feel like a normie telling you to "no don't kys, life is so guuuuuuud", but i think he has a good point, try finding something or someone that could potentially make you accept the pain if not already, sadly, people here are biased, as we all either want to die, to escape the pain, weither it's physical or mental, or people interested in our thinking and "way of life", i sadly think you won't find much good answers here, have you tried asking some normies aka non suicidal/pro life people ? i think they could really help you better than us, even if we do our best haha. Imo that is an insanely good reason to die, and i think belgium or some other countries could accept your reason and euthanize you for free, or at least less expensive than fucking switzerland.

as you said you have great friends, a good life, people that care about you, to be honest, i don't really feel it to other members here as i know they embrace and workship death as much as i do, but i would be really sad if you go away, because it seems you have a nice time here, not like alot of us, it seems like a waste in my opinion, but who i am to talk, as i'm not in your shoes, nor i have any idea how it feels to truly live like you and my bud, i can only comprehend and imagine it. I would advice to try finding a reason to live, a loved one, an experience, or anything really. Wait it out, try absolutely everything you can, so that way, if you don't want to try anymore, at least you can say to yourself "hey, i tried everything i could, i won't be able to blame myself and hate myself having self doubts that i didn't try anything, i can rest."

only you can decide what way you want to take, in the meantime, i'm not a believer, but i'l pray whoever can hear my thoughts, let it be maybe aliens lol, that you'l be ridden of this fucking pain as hard as i can before i die :) Take care Dizzy, best of luck, no matter what outcome you choose, much love

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I'd try Botox before giving up. I know it's far from a guarantee, but it has worked wonders for some folks who thought themselves desperate and incurable with migraines and cluster headaches.

There's always time to ctb.

 

[Dizzylady80]

He told me something when i asked him "how can you live like that for so long ?" as he had it since he was a kid, he told me that when he found love, it made his pain not lower, not forgotten, nor disapear, but it made it "bearable" or worth it if you get my meaning, basically, finding a reason top accept it

Thank you Very much for this anecdote and your thoughts, it's very helpful ❤ I do something like this already, but my love for life is very broad. I think focusing it a bit might help


Thank you all for your honest input, you've given me a lot to think about