Would you all care if I posted when I ctb, just to feel like I'm talking to someone? I know it sounds stupid. I'm going to do it by December I think. I was going to wait until after the new year but I can't. I'm sorry I'm posting so much today. I'm just having a really hard time with my anxiety right now. I feel like I'm in the way and now I keep crying. I feel so stupid. I'm sorry-I seriously wish I was dead right now. I have to take care of stuff for my husband first though. Again sorry for my whiny posts. You guys are the only ones that would understand.
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シルエット
Member
- Oct 29, 2021
- 13
Idontrecognizemyself
Thank you for listening
- Oct 26, 2021
- 79
We would be honored to be present with you when it happens. Wishing you peace in this next month : )
I just hope it works. My worst fear is survival. Thanks for putting up with me
flagmaster
Member
- Oct 19, 2020
- 53
You don't need to be sorry for posting here. I hope it brings you some sort of comfort / relief with what you're going through. You and your thoughts are safe here and you can express them as much or as little as you wish.
Being able to speak your truth and how you're really feeling without the fear of judgement is something that this forum does well. You've always got a place here, feel free to post / message away.
Being able to speak your truth and how you're really feeling without the fear of judgement is something that this forum does well. You've always got a place here, feel free to post / message away.
Thank you. I feel like a failure at life but I'm just over it all. My anxiety is skyrocketing high and I can't take it anymore. Like I keep saying, I just have to make sure it works. I decided today I can't wait till after Christmas. I think Dec 4th is my day to ctb.
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,252
Recommend put in title post wld like company- many ppl often post 2 reassure if know desire it.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 42,569
Post as much as you like. It really is horrible being alive, I'm sorry things are so hopeless. I understand it is hard to carry on when you cannot take it anymore. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,252
Mean if decide 2 ctb b/ this post show u how many ppl care. Hope helps.
I know this is your thread, but actually I don't wanna be alone either when I do it. I just have so much anxiety it's hard for me to even concentrate to write. I have to get over my SI.
I have 50 g of SN. I'm 173 cm and 74 kg. Is it enough if I make 2x25 g of SN ? Or is it overkill?
I have 50 g of SN. I'm 173 cm and 74 kg. Is it enough if I make 2x25 g of SN ? Or is it overkill?
kurisutinabestgirl
Kurisu is best girl
- Oct 14, 2021
- 83
Hey man, we very much care, as someone said here already, I would be honored to be with you until the end.
I wish you the best with your plan, and we will be here <3.
I wish you the best with your plan, and we will be here <3.
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marinekiwi
Student
- Oct 28, 2021
- 148
I think it would be just fine. SN is some serious poison. People have died by just "testing" 1 or 2g of powder.
So, only use SN when you're ready to CTB, please.
Yes I will. I had it all laid out this morning, but anxiety hit.
I would really like "company" too when I do it. I've seen alot of threads around here with people ctb, and I think it means alot that there is someone there with them.
If I'm here at that time and online, I will be here like the rest of the gang :-)
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marinekiwi
Student
- Oct 28, 2021
- 148
Whatever you do, we'll be here to support.
I'm a new member, but i've been following these forums for quite a long time now, and the support other members give to people about to ctb is very heart warming. You will not be alone.
I'm a new member, but i've been following these forums for quite a long time now, and the support other members give to people about to ctb is very heart warming. You will not be alone.
avoid_slow_death
Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
- Feb 4, 2020
- 1,358
Absolutely no apologies. You are very obviously in a lot of pain and distress and feel like everything is helpless and nobody gets it. I know how you feel because I feel the same way. But that should never ever silence you from saying how you feel. Ever. You're not being whiny or annoying. In fact, I truly want to help you feel better, but I know I cannot, so, I can only offer you emotional support. I do hope you can find a solution to your dilemma though. It is unfair that you have to suffer like you do....
Your posts are not whiny. You are going through a horrible, painful, frightening time right now.
I'm glad you're reaching out for someone to talk to. I hope you find someone.
I'd volunteer to be that person but I'm too emotionally sick and overwhelmed right now to be of much use to anyone.
Truly wish you peace and blessings, regardless of what decision you come to for yourself.
I'm glad you're reaching out for someone to talk to. I hope you find someone.
I'd volunteer to be that person but I'm too emotionally sick and overwhelmed right now to be of much use to anyone.
Truly wish you peace and blessings, regardless of what decision you come to for yourself.
I really was going to try to make Christmas but I can't. I'm just a weak person I guess.
