I think no matter how or when you choose to go, people will always view CTB as dramatic. I mean, it is a pretty serious choice to make since once you make it there's no coming back (though that's true for a lot of things). I would just say make sure you're careful, and minimize the effect it will have on other people, as well as making absolutely certain this is the choice you want to make. There are a lot of downsides to a failed attempt, as I'm sure you'll be able to gather from other posts here, and you don't want hastiness to CTB to increase your suffering at the end of the day rather than be a relief for you.