lassie

lassie

she/her · 2002–####
Sep 15, 2024
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would i be dead before i hear it go off? is there even a way to know?

loud noises have always been difficult for me. i was diagnosed with autism when i was young enough to be helped more, but my home environment was too loud and violent for me to make any progress on that issue. even thunderstorms still make me cry—ehehe. hearing a gun fire at point-blank range might startle me half to death! though that wouldn't be counterproductive, i don't think the bullet needs help.

i wish for a moment in my life where i can be certain nothing will ever scare me again. why can't anything, even pulling a trigger, ever be easy? scary...all of it.
 
Apathy79

Apathy79

Arcanist
Oct 13, 2019
489
Nah you wouldn't hear it. The bullet travels faster than sound, and your brain takes extra time to process the sound.
 
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cait_sith

cait_sith

Brain rotted, often missing word
Apr 8, 2024
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I ve once read that people some wear earplugs to ease themselves from the upcoming bang, of course they won't do shit
 
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ccake

ccake

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Apr 10, 2023
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how do you have the courage to use a firearm? i have access to one but its so scary like i am terrified of failing
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
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I don't think your brain would be able to register the gunshot bang before it kills you (depending on how far away your pointing the gun)
 
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Neowise

Neowise

We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
Oct 7, 2020
484
how do you have the courage to use a firearm? i have access to one but its so scary like i am terrified of failing
I wished I had a gun, shooting myself is my #1 method. You just press a button and that's it. But I know how you feel, I for exmaple can't comprehend how people can jump off buildings or cliffs. That is pure horror to me.
 
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ccake

ccake

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Apr 10, 2023
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I wished I had a gun, shooting myself is my #1 method. You just press a button and that's it. But I know how you feel, I for exmaple can't comprehend how people can jump off buildings or cliffs. That is pure horror to me.
jumping is mainly my preferred method but theres nowhere around me i could do it from. and for firearm would it really be it after? what if you shoot and you're still alive experiencing the worst pain possible... What makes you ignore that fear?
 
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Death is my goal

Death is my goal

pathetic failure
Aug 25, 2022
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how do you have the courage to use a firearm? i have access to one but its so scary like i am terrified of failing

it's not that crazy compared to jumping for example, wish i had a gun
 
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ccake

ccake

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Apr 10, 2023
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it's not that crazy compared to jumping for example, wish i had a gun
i just searched for my dads gun after i wrote that and i cant find it. now i feel really scared and trapped as if i have no way out, i believe theyre hiding it now ever since i told them about my suicidal thoughts last year
 
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maniac116

maniac116

My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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You may hear it for a split second but before you could have any thought about it you'll be gone.🤗🌹💔
 
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Neowise

Neowise

We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
Oct 7, 2020
484
jumping is mainly my preferred method but theres nowhere around me i could do it from. and for firearm would it really be it after? what if you shoot and you're still alive experiencing the worst pain possible... What makes you ignore that fear?
I don't know... I've seen videos of people shooting themselves and they always instantly collapsed. I think I just ignore the fact that it could fail. I mean, if you hit the right spot there is a near 100% success rate.

To be fair, jumping is also equally viable but I just don't like the thought of falling and slamming into the floor, my bones breaking and my organs ripping. Even though I am already dead at that point I can't help but picture the impact in slow motion.
 
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