Help Worries about the child and the desire for Ctb

[strangelife]

My neurological disease makes me disabled, it is difficult for me to walk and I spend all my time at home in bed because of back and leg pain, I see no point in continuing to endure except for one thing that really bothers me, I have a son and I still wanted to do so much with him, but in this state I have nothing I can't, I don't want to live, but I'm worried about my son, he's 13 years old, I spent a lot of time with him and tried to give him the most that I could, I'm very worried how he will be able to survive if I'm not there. He will stay with his mother. It really torments me.
I have SN and antiametics, and I have nitrogen in my garage with regulator but still I prefer SN.

 

[hiAbbey]

My neurological disease makes me disabled, it is difficult for me to walk and I spend all my time at home in bed because of back and leg pain, I see no point in continuing to endure except for one thing that really bothers me, I have a son and I still wanted to do so much with him, but in this state I have nothing I can't, I don't want to live, but I'm worried about my son, he's 13 years old, I spent a lot of time with him and tried to give him the most that I could, I'm very worried how he will be able to survive if I'm not there. He will stay with his mother. It really torments me.
I have SN and antiametics, and I have nitrogen in my garage with regulator but still I prefer SN

I also have a neurological issue— can I ask what illness you have? Is it ALS?

 

[strangelife]

I also have a neurological issue— can I ask what illness you have? Is it ALS?

They can't diagnose me, MRI also doesn't find the exact causes yet, apparently something vascular, there was an exacerbation 3 years ago, but then it went away, and now it's getting worse and worse. The doctors discharged me from the hospital and said they didn't know how to treat it.

I also have a neurological issue— can I ask what illness you have? Is it ALS?

when your illness started? What do you feel now?