Discussion Worried about “after”

[angelicism999]

So this is stupid, but I have a lot of anxieties abt what happens to 'me' after ctb? It feels a bit like I'd be leaving my body unattended, which freaks me out for trauma reasons, but it also just feels like I'm like... littering or something? Just because no matter what I'll be leaving behind some gruesome thing that other people will be forced to 'clean up' or something and that like makes me want to cry. It's super ridiculous I know, but it's a hangup I actually have so I was wondering if ppl had any thoughts/advice.

 

[I’vehadenough]

Well, I've thought of that. But my life is so horrifying that anything after this is a better option

 

[komm susser todd]

Depends on how you ctb. Anything messy ie jumping or blowing your brains out i get. Personally im just gonna go full suspension so my remains will be neat and in order. Just gonna make sure to have my last piss and shit so i dont leave a bigger mess afterwords LMAO

Otherwise nah not my problem anymore. Cant wait to have that last 40 and a few shots before lights out

 

[theuninstallbutton]

Yes, I 100% know how you feel about this. This is not stupid at all. I have had similar thoughts, and you are not alone. Have you ever tried astral projecting? I'd like to think astral projection is similar to death. Or out of body experience.

When people die, others have to clean up after them all the time. You are not littering as when a human dies, the body decomposes and provides food and nutrients for nature. These thoughts you have would not be shared by other people. They would be thinking about how much they miss you, how they could have saved you, et cetera.

 

[angelicism999]

Depends on how you ctb. Anything messy ie jumping or blowing your brains out i get. Personally im just gonna go full suspension so my remains will be neat and in order. Just gonna make sure to have my last piss and shit so i dont leave a bigger mess afterwords LMAO

Otherwise nah not my problem anymore. Cant wait to have that last 40 and a few shots before lights out

pffffft omg this is hilar, that's such a good mentality to have lol

 

[komm susser todd]

pffffft omg this is hilar, that's such a good mentality to have lol

Hey what can i say, i pick up after my own shit, dont want anyone to be pissed

 

[TimeToDie]

Everyone will need a "clean-up" eventually. It's not as if dropping dead of natural causes at 85 is pretty thing to deal with. Undertakers make a living dealing with nasty things that everyone would prefer to avoid.

 

[Alchemist]

Once dead nothing matters. Once everyone dies is just rotting organic matter. Just like a banana peel but bigger.

 

[angelicism999]

Well, I've thought of that. But my life is so horrifying that anything after this is a better option

:( I'm so sorry guy. I hope you find your ease, however you do it.

Yes, I 100% know how you feel about this. This is not stupid at all. I have had similar thoughts, and you are not alone. Have you ever tried astral projecting? I'd like to think astral projection is similar to death. Or out of body experience.

When people die, others have to clean up after them all the time. You are not littering as when a human dies, the body decomposes and provides food and nutrients for nature. These thoughts you have would not be shared by other people. They would be thinking about how much they miss you, how they could have saved you, et cetera.

Aaa this is so sweet thank you.... i haven't really tried astral projecting but it seems fun! I'll try later maybs.

Everyone will need a "clean-up" eventually. It's not as if dropping dead of natural causes at 85 is pretty thing to deal with. Undertakers make a living dealing with nasty things that everyone would prefer to avoid.

that's so true, but idk it just feels like i'm like taking up space w/e i do i wish there was like a disintegration button?

Once dead nothing matters. Once everyone dies is just rotting organic matter. Just like a banana peel but bigger.

that's rly comforting...

 

[theuninstallbutton]

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[Alchemist]

that's rly comforting...

I get the sarcasm, but I've found that some confort can be found in apathy, specially when everything is causing anxiety.

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[angelicism999]

I get the sarcasm, but I've found that some confort can be found in apathy, specially when everything is causing anxiety.



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Oh i wasn't being sarcastic!! It was genuinely comforting, I'm sorry for wording it weird

 

[theuninstallbutton]

I get the sarcasm, but I've found that some confort can be found in apathy, specially when everything is causing anxiety.



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Right, I forgot about that considering I joined a day ago. So sorry!

*Pm me after 24 hours and after you make 5 posts if you want. <3

 

[angelicism999]

Right, I forgot about that considering I joined a day ago. So sorry!

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yeah totes!!! for sure you seem rad, i can't wait to learn star stuff :)

 

[daikon]

So this is stupid, but I have a lot of anxieties abt what happens to 'me' after ctb? It feels a bit like I'd be leaving my body unattended, which freaks me out for trauma reasons, but it also just feels like I'm like... littering or something? Just because no matter what I'll be leaving behind some gruesome thing that other people will be forced to 'clean up' or something and that like makes me want to cry. It's super ridiculous I know, but it's a hangup I actually have so I was wondering if ppl had any thoughts/advice.

My plan is to send a delayed email or mail a letter to the police, so that way a professional will find my body. It won't be pretty, but at least it'll be someone who's paid to deal with that sort of thing and who has consented to be the first responder in that sort of situation. In any case, it's going to happen no matter how you die. Corpses are simply a part of life. You don't need to feel guilty about leaving one behind.

 

[angelicism999]

My plan is to send a delayed email or mail a letter to the police, so that way a professional will find my body. It won't be pretty, but at least it'll be someone who's paid to deal with that sort of thing and who has consented to be the first responder in that sort of situation. In any case, it's going to happen no matter how you die. Corpses are simply a part of life. You don't need to feel guilty about leaving one behind.

thanks so much for this! that's super kind and made me feel a lot better. and that's a good idea!!

 

[restingspot]

So this is stupid, but I have a lot of anxieties abt what happens to 'me' after ctb? It feels a bit like I'd be leaving my body unattended, which freaks me out for trauma reasons, but it also just feels like I'm like... littering or something? Just because no matter what I'll be leaving behind some gruesome thing that other people will be forced to 'clean up' or something and that like makes me want to cry. It's super ridiculous I know, but it's a hangup I actually have so I was wondering if ppl had any thoughts/advice.

If this is a major concern, make a cleanup plan. Clean yourself up before you ctb, lay on some plastic to make it easier. Depending on your method you could also just cover yourself with a sheet to prevent regular people seeing you.

The folks who are gonna clean you up have seen and dealt with much worse. Hoarders, 600lb+ people, literal tubs of human soup, people in horrifically advanced stages of decomp...you'll most likely be a welcome break for them. And never forget, while you're worrying about this now, the fear will be gone after you ctb, because you'll be somewhere else where you most likely won't care less.

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Your body is just clay when your soul has left it. If you want to really know what comes next here are some excellent websites:

NDERF Home Page

Near Death Experience Research Foundation the largest collection of Near Death Experiences (NDE) in over 23 Languages. With thousands of full-text near death experiences posted. Share your near death experience, research, spiritually transforming events, consciousness studies, extensive...

nderf.org

IANDS - the most reliable source of information on NDEs

IANDS, International Association for Near Death Studies

iands.org

Home

A comprehensive collection of information and resources about the Near-Death Experience. Includes a well organized index, a huge collection of NDE accounts, a newsletter, message board and support.

www.near-death.com

Never the spirit was born;
the spirit shall cease to be never;
Never was time it was not;
End and Beginning are dreams!
Birthless and deathless and changeless remaineth the spirit for ever;
Death hath not touched it at all, dead though the house of it seems!

The Bhagavad Gita

 

[Asta]

At last! Thank you for that. There is also the ADC information, which you've probably read.

 

[TimeToDie]

Once dead nothing matters.

Has anyone else repeated "It's doesn't matter when dead" in an attempt to calm down when they find yet another thing distressing them?

 

[lifeisbutadream]

At last! Thank you for that. There is also the ADC information, which you've probably read.

You're welcome. What is ADC please?

 

[FF777]

Your body is biodegradable first of all.. Second, no matter who finds you, it will probably be authorities cleaning up your body, not your family or friends.. And, after bodily death, I believe you are still a piece of conscious energy that exists.. I like reading the archive of near-death experiences on the iands.org website..

 

[HGL91]

Has anyone else repeated "It's doesn't matter when dead" in an attempt to calm down when they find yet another thing distressing them?

Me practically every minute of the day making decisions lol

So this is stupid, but I have a lot of anxieties abt what happens to 'me' after ctb? It feels a bit like I'd be leaving my body unattended, which freaks me out for trauma reasons, but it also just feels like I'm like... littering or something? Just because no matter what I'll be leaving behind some gruesome thing that other people will be forced to 'clean up' or something and that like makes me want to cry. It's super ridiculous I know, but it's a hangup I actually have so I was wondering if ppl had any thoughts/advice.

Lol that's very sweet, but keep in mind that when someone CTB's, they won't have to look back and see what happens to their body and how it affects people. Like, when a person CTB's they've peaced out forever, and if one person's CTB doesn't traumatize someone, something else will because life is just evil like that. ^_^

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Your body is biodegradable first of all.. Second, no matter who finds you, it will probably be authorities cleaning up your body, not your family or friends.. And, after bodily death, I believe you are still a piece of conscious energy that exists.. I like reading the archive of near-death experiences on the iands.org website..

I am reading the nde's on the NDERF website right now. So many, thousands, and in great detail.

 

[FF777]

I am reading the nde's on the NDERF website right now. So many, thousands, and in great detail.

Whoa...I'll have to check that out now, thanks..

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Whoa...I'll have to check that out now, thanks..

You're welcome! Note that the narratives are presented in thumbnail fashion. Then you click on the name and the experience comes up in detail. I didn't realize that when i first went there. Duh.

 

[TimeToDie]

Second, no matter who finds you, it will probably be authorities cleaning up your body, not your family or friends.

If it's a messy death -- like a shotgun suicide -- there will be plenty of blood (and other stuff) after they remove the body. There are companies that specialize in cleaning up suicides & crime scenes. Professional cleaning would be needed for any means of death if a body has time to decompose and it's rather disturbing to read what happens & how fast it happens. Moral of the story: make sure you will be found in a timely manner or CTB outside.