Yes, it is the same for me. As soon as I wake Up in the morning, I start having thoughts of suicide In about 2 seconds. I know this is silly, but as soon as I open my eyes in the morning, I realize I am still here, and I immediately become depressed, because the thought of having to live another day is just so painful. I have these suicidal thoughts all day long. I They never stop not even for a minute. The only time I can get some peace and be happy is when I am asleep. it has gotten so bad now, that even when I wake up in the middle of the night, I start having suicidal thoughts and have trouble falling back asleep. The worst part is I feel trapped. I really want to be gone, but deep down I am too chicken to do it. I just feel trapped
between life and death. I can't stand it anymore. It's like being mentally tortured everyday.