Discussion Witnessing near death/death

[6ixxy]

As per my reply to my previous post, I mentioned that I experienced somewhat of a tragedy last night whilst at work.
The tragedy being, that one of my very close work friends suffered a seizure right in front of my eyes. I hadn't seen him all night & the one moment I went in to say hello, that's when it struck. I'm struggling to come to grips with it & it's been quite a traumatic experience for me, potentially mentally scarring.

Now I'm fairly young, so I'm not 'experienced' in witnessing things like this hence my perhaps exaggerated reaction. My question & point of this post is not to only vent my feelings but also to find out opinions on whether witnessing something of a similar nature could or has changed your mind in the effort to CTB.

For me it's almost put things into perspective, like a shock tactic. I feel a great deal of sadness from the event & it makes me think is that what it's like?
I'm hoping that this is a temporary feeling as I really don't want to be persuaded in the other direction, I still very much want to follow through with my plans.

 

[LMLN]

Someone very close to me had a seizure disorder. I'm sorry you witnessed that. It is indeed distressing I know, and quite scary. But this person assured me that all they experienced was some dizziness and confusion and then it was black. When coming out of it they had no memory or knowledge of what happened after passing out.

Edited to answer your question...no it has not influenced my decision. I think maybe it has desensitized me a bit....I dont know.