Venting Wishing I could ctb

[drinkingintohell]

Been really contemplating life as of late. Depression and suicidal thoughts have gotten worse and overall an urge to simply no longer exist has become extremely hard to ignore. It's so hard, feeling tortured everyday by my own body and mind. I'm constantly in pain and generally miserable each day of my life. I'm tired. My only hope anymore is how I will some day die whether it be ctb or natural causes. I just wish it could be sooner rather than later, that some mad man would break into my home and kill me, that a car will slide across the road into mine and kill me ln impact, or that somehow everyone in my life will disappear and I can take my own life without feeling guilt.
I really hate how much pressure there is to continue living. How on earth am I expected to happily go along with life when I feel like this? It all feels like a cruel joke. But God forbid I give myself mercy and ctb

 

[human909]

I also wish that someone would break in my house and kill me or even better die by natural causes. Life sucks so much right now i fucking hate people for not letting us catch the bus whenever we want too.

 

[itriedinthislife2]

i mean tehcnically speaking or factually speaking u can end it whenever you want with a variety of methods. im not encouraging you. im obviously not at that point hence why im still here but my firearm would do the trick granted i decide thats what i want

 

[loneloser]

Every time I go to sleep I wish that I just wouldn't wake up the next day. I get super pissed when I inevitably just wake up the next evening.

 

[Mukuro Ikusaba]

Been really contemplating life as of late. Depression and suicidal thoughts have gotten worse and overall an urge to simply no longer exist has become extremely hard to ignore. It's so hard, feeling tortured everyday by my own body and mind. I'm constantly in pain and generally miserable each day of my life. I'm tired. My only hope anymore is how I will some day die whether it be ctb or natural causes. I just wish it could be sooner rather than later, that some mad man would break into my home and kill me, that a car will slide across the road into mine and kill me ln impact, or that somehow everyone in my life will disappear and I can take my own life without feeling guilt.
I really hate how much pressure there is to continue living. How on earth am I expected to happily go along with life when I feel like this? It all feels like a cruel joke. But God forbid I give myself mercy and ctb

Don't then.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also find it so painful and torturous to suffer in this existence and I feel really tired of it all as well, all I personally wish for is to not exist, I wish I could just fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, permanently ceasing to exist really would be the only relief for me, I hope that you find peace.