Wishful thinking

[Parnate]

All my problems are cause i was born to my mother. I inherited everything from her side of the family.
Avpd. ADHD. Hyperhidrosis. Hairloss.

I always wonder what if my father hadn't married my mother. What if he had married another mentally healthier woman. Probably i would have been born better.
I daydream a lot about being born to someone else . Hod different and better my life could have been and how beautiful life could have been.
At times i blame her too for being my mother. I know it's not right she had no control over how i am. But when I was child she has been neglectful and abusive towards me . Now she has changed but still it doenst change the past and the wounds that she gave me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it's such a cruel thing to procreate, and cause all of this unnecessary suffering to be experienced. It's just so incredibly unfair how you've had to go through all this.