I understand how you feel and I'm very sorry you do feel that way.
And I completely agree with
@brokensea about how people seem to have no loyalty these days and connections mean so little. Very few seem to value actual interaction and connection with others, now that the internet and social media have made meeting and 'hooking up' so easy. Not just romantic relationships either but friendships. Nobody wants to put any effort into meeting other people and definitely not any effort into any kind of relationship; if things get rocky or there needs to be real communication, people bail now instead of working through things. People and relationships have become like Kleenex, so easy to just toss away. Everyone and everything has become expendable and disposable.
It's so true. My boyfriend killed himself and after a couple weeks of support everyone just drifted away. I was alone by myself crying every day for months. No one even wanted to talk about such an uncomfortable subject or look and deal with such grief.
I feel people don't have the strength, loyalty or care to be there for you.
I can't tell you how many hard times I've had in my life where people disappeared.
I think I just shut down after everyone flaked out when my boyfriend died and realized no one is going to be there for you. I stopped trusting people completely. No one in my life knows I'm suicidal and depressed. I don't even bother telling anyone.
I've always been loyal. There for people, helped them through anything and I just don't know if there's even such a thing as a person who will truly be there for you.
People meet other friends, find a relationship and they're distant from you like you don't matter at all.
The world feels so incredibly lonely to know in life you are truly alone and no one will reciprocate the love and loyalty you have for them.
Now I just stay home and hardly see anyone for two years now. I feel disconnected from everyone.