Wish I could know my exact death date

[CantDoIt]

I wish I could know when I would die if I "stuck it out" and then decide if I wanted to wait that long. I wish I was one of those people that got mystical dreams from celestial beings being like "you're suffering for a reason" or whatever and maybe it would make me want to stay. People get like these NDEs or dreams or whatever, and come back with a "better" perspective not caring about Earthly life, etc. Unfortunately, it seems like I'm too obsessed with Earthly life to the point where it's causing me suffering. I only have dreams about Ctb, and the dreams that do contain "entities" do not specifically tell me anything (they are cryptic).

 

[norain]

I relate to what you're saying, an NDE sounds like a relief from the heaviness