Why can't I just die in my sleep just woke up and I'm already balling my eyes out again crying alone I feel so disconnected and scared from everything
LookingOverTheEdge
Hello Darkness my old friend
- Jul 13, 2020
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I've seen you posting on here a lot. You sound like you're overwhelmed with it all and my heart goes out to you. I'm here if you want to talk
LookingOverTheEdge
Hello Darkness my old friend
- Jul 13, 2020
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Not at all. Just want you to know you aren't alone. Because I know what that feels like
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Technically when I decapitate myself I will lose consciousness instantly and be fully dead after 5 minutes, so I am technically dying in my sleep, it's just a suddenly forced sleep.
Deleted member 17949
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Using drop hanging. Done some research to figure out how to turn it into a decapitation. I won't clog up this post with that.
Where will you do it? it'll be very traumatising for whoever finds you..
Deleted member 17949
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A bridge probably. That sounds like someone else's problem lol
I know what it is like hunny, I feel like that most days. I keep a box of tissues on my bed because I wake up and think oh no not another day! But I'll tell you one thing Elizabeth YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS!!!
Mila
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Linda
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Mila, is this a fairly new thing for you, or have you felt that way for many years? If it's fairly new, it's probably caused by some change in your circumstances, and those changes are likely to be temporary. It's grim while you are in the middle of it, but it doesn't last forever. (I have been there.) If you have felt this way for many years the only advice I can offer is that you talk to a professional therapist - though you will probably already have done that.
Mila
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- Jul 18, 2020
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Linda, thanks for your words and your time, means a lot to me. Been feeling like this for years. Therapist? Yes! Just blah blah blah as if it was so easy to change how we feel, how we live...I hate waking up in the mornings and see the light... so done crying myself to sleep and waking up crying as well. I really want to ctb for 5 months. I have nothing and no one to live for. I am glad to have found SS and hope to find the right way to do it. I honestly want it to be painless and fast. I was determined to take a cocktail of pills but when reading what ppl say about it, now I have second thoughts. Thanks again!
Linda
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Mila, if you are sure - really sure - that you have nothing to live for, and that the situation will not improve, then I guess you will take appropriate steps. Even if you have no one to live for, remember that there are people on this site who care about you. I'm no therapist, and probably nobody else here is either, but we might have more common sense than some therapists. If you want to run any issues past anyone, there are people here who will listen. There is just a chance that we might be able to help. Whatever you choose to do, good luck.
Mila
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- Jul 18, 2020
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Linda, may I ask why you typed this: "Why can't I just die in my sleep just woke up and I'm already balling my eyes out again crying alone I feel so disconnected and scared from everything".
Just wondering cause you seem to be a positive person...
Just wondering cause you seem to be a positive person...
Linda
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- Jul 30, 2020
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Mila, I think there may be some crossed wires here. That phrase, from the top of this page, was typed by elizabethisworthie, not by me. I came into this in the middle of the page, responding to you.
And the reason I responded to you is that you are following me. (Nobody else has paid me that compliment.)
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Mila
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- Jul 18, 2020
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Omg I am still less than a newbie here. I am sorry... I have all my wires crossed as you may notice
I am glad I decided to follow you; wise decision of mine since I need some positive words. Thank you very much!
That's all I ask every night!
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Linda
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- Jul 30, 2020
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Mila, I have been working with computers since 1971, and I still make mistakes like that sometimes. It's nice to know that I have some company.
Mila
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Linda
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Mila, go to the thread "Introduce yourself" in the forum "Offtopic" and you will find the answer there, in the post I wrote yesterday. I am not a typical user of this site, but I have enough in common with other people here that I feel I may have something to contribute.
IamTristero
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- Aug 4, 2020
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Hi Mila, I you try to reach me but i don't know how to answear your message
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